Reckoner
12-04-2007, 09:40 PM
first of all, hi everyone, first time poster.
so i've battled depression/anxiety/ocd and the entire web of mental issues that go along with them for eleven years now.. just over half of my life. these issues were exceedingly tough throughout my teenage years, and i constantly felt that if there were any way to get rid of them, that i would.
well, come this year and i switch to another new medication, and amp myself up to a pretty high dosage, and lo and behold, my symptoms are no longer noticeable. so some time passes, about six months, and things are going great, but then i notice something that begins to disturb me greatly: i no longer feel like myself. so i stop taking my medications for about 3 1/2 weeks, only to encounter some brutal withdrawals once the meds had completely filtered out of my system.
so, come yesterday, i visit my psychiatrist and half the dosage that was causing me distress. now, here i am today, feeling my symptoms rising up again and making life all the more difficult.
this whole situation has thrown me in to an almost crippling confusion.. even now, i sit at the kitchen table feeling extremely twitchy and uncomfortable.
with the backstory out of the way, let me ask a question to any readers:
in your experience, have anxiety or depression yielded anything beneficial to your life or sense of self? have any of you come across a good reason to go au naturale, or does the best course of action seem to be to apply medication when possible?
so i've battled depression/anxiety/ocd and the entire web of mental issues that go along with them for eleven years now.. just over half of my life. these issues were exceedingly tough throughout my teenage years, and i constantly felt that if there were any way to get rid of them, that i would.
well, come this year and i switch to another new medication, and amp myself up to a pretty high dosage, and lo and behold, my symptoms are no longer noticeable. so some time passes, about six months, and things are going great, but then i notice something that begins to disturb me greatly: i no longer feel like myself. so i stop taking my medications for about 3 1/2 weeks, only to encounter some brutal withdrawals once the meds had completely filtered out of my system.
so, come yesterday, i visit my psychiatrist and half the dosage that was causing me distress. now, here i am today, feeling my symptoms rising up again and making life all the more difficult.
this whole situation has thrown me in to an almost crippling confusion.. even now, i sit at the kitchen table feeling extremely twitchy and uncomfortable.
with the backstory out of the way, let me ask a question to any readers:
in your experience, have anxiety or depression yielded anything beneficial to your life or sense of self? have any of you come across a good reason to go au naturale, or does the best course of action seem to be to apply medication when possible?