I thought I was going fine then it all came back

[Factotum]

I know this happens, but I'm just in a dark place again and need some perspective please.
A little while ago I left a job I hated (company downsized) then had a few weeks off where I could visit my family, relax and so on. I then ended up getting a new job which I actually don't mind now and it's a lot more relaxed than the last one, I work with better people etc.

I was feeling good, things were feeling bright and the future looked good.

Then for no reason at all, the other week I started acting up, getting impatient, angry and melancholy. I find it really hard to get out of bed, I'm isolating myself from everyone again. I can feel the wall I've built up around myself and it's comfortable. But I'm getting really dark and isolated.

Why does it happen like this? Why when things are going well for a little while does it all come crashing down again? I feel like everything is just so hard to deal with. It's my birthday coming up soon and I hardly even care...

[J19o94y]

I totally get this like I am doing the same I cant find a job I like or even get past an interview due to my anxiety and its like a rollercoaster and its great I wish I could just live in my room forever I would be quite happy...:(

[Factotum]

Yeah I hear that. It's like, I know I'll probably be ok in a week or so (maybe more maybe less) but it just seems impossible. You knows, "this time maybe it doesn't go back to normal" or something like that. Thanks though it's good to know there's others out there feeling the same or who have felt the same at some point.

[alankay]

Are you on a AD? We do all our tough times and at times it seems random. Other times there's a reason somewhere. Hang in there I bet you'll come out of your funk. Alankay

[Factotum]

Yeah I'm on Citalopram, lowest dosage because the side effects can make me tired if I take any higher. Thanks, I'm sure I just gotta stick with it and it'll pass. Does anyone else get waves like this? How long do yours last?