Hi, welcome to my world

[sweet_girl06]

I think the biggest part of my anxiety would be the what I guess you could say is just "over thinking" everything.

I am constantly worried about conversations I have had earlier in the day with people, replaying the conversations over and over again in my mind. The simplest of conversations will not go out of my head! It drives me crazy, the worry and the stress of obsessing over every little thing. Did I say the right thing? Did I make them angry and they are just not telling me?

Sometimes even when I do not consciously feel anxious, I get short of breath anyway and stay that way for hours. The tension headaches have become much more noticeable than ever before. I feel like my happiness is constantly being challenged by something that is out to get me.

I worry that if I don't see my loved ones that something bad might happen to them before I get a chance to do so.

I drive 6 miles back home because I have stresed myself out so much over the fact that I am not sure if I have locked my front door or not.

Am I insane? Does anyone else feel anything like this?

I feel like if someone laughs as I am walking by, even if they are in conversation with someone else and completely oblivious to my existance, that it HAS to be about me.

I get angry for no reason and take it out on my fiancee. I worry, worry, worry, way too much. The tension builds up, it seems overwhelming.

[Velrose]

Oh...wow have I ever been there. Even now my husband gets frustrated because I constantly have to run back into the house and check 1) the stove (even if I didn't cook anything) 2) the lights (I'm scared they'll catch fire if I leave them on while I am gone 3) the front door that it was locked.

I also worry my husband will wreck the car if I am not there with him--or that my inlaws will wreck one day while they're with my daughter if I am not there with them in the car. They are NOT dangerous drivers--this is just my over- concern with wanting and keeping my loved ones safe.

I used to worry myself all of the time about conversations with people. I always wondered if they thought I was dumb, or said something stupid. This later turned into the thought of--(And this will sound weird, I don't know if I can explain it correctly) I know I am talking to this person, but am I making sense...Do they understand me?

When I say that, I don't mean, did I get my point across-- I quite literally mean, did they understand me...do I have a speech issue, do I have too thick of an accent, did I put my words in the correct order. Let me assure you, I speak English, have no accent, and it is my native language...why I worried is beyond me.

And yes--I've been paranoid people who likely never even noticed me were talking about me. So much that I would feel my face flush with embarrassment and have tears well into my eyes. I still get that way sometimes, but it's more under control. For me it was really worse back in high school, (that was 7 yrs or so ago.)

You're not insane, really. ^_^ And let me reassure you, posting here is a wonderful thing--doesn't it help to know you're NOT alone?