RT24
09-12-2013, 06:28 PM
Hi, I'm new here. Sorry if I do anything wrong!!
So I'm an obsessive-compulsive/depressed person with a fear of dying and some (typically minor) anxiety issues. I've had a few bad attacks, but nothing too awful. My depression and OCD are usually the worst of it. But since the week university started, I've been super anxious all the time with a lot of it manifesting in hypochondria. A few days before school started, I had trouble falling asleep (jolting awake). I chalked it up to anxiety and was able to fall asleep normally again soon. Then I'd wake up with "numbness"--or perceived numbness, I'd feel as if I was numb but I could still feel things just fine and wasn't experiencing discoloration. I worried I had a heart condition for a few days. Then it was stomach cancer (I'd been experiencing a lack of appetite, fullness, feeling my stomach for bumps that I'm pretty sure are just fatty tissue, etc). Then it was anxiety about lymphoma. I gradually gained my appetite back, but now it's a fear of a brain tumor. I'll get tingling sensations in my head and body parts (like goosebumps, not so much like pins and needles). I'll feel like my hands aren't working properly (though they essentially are) and I'll experience moments where I feel distant from the world around me, and vision troubles (mostly from being nearsighted). I haven't had headaches really, but the worry is still there.
The attacks manifest like symptoms too, and usually in class so I'll feel trapped. Typical attacks usually occur when I perceive a "symptom" and my body panics more and more and develops more "symptoms." For instance, in class the other day I was worried my vision was screwing up when it just seemed to be eye strain from the lighting in the room. As the class dragged on, my head would start to feel heavy or my face muscles would feel stiff and I'd begin to panic about a brain problem or potentially fainting. My symptoms usually ebb away once I'm home, where I tend to feel most calm. I also feel a lot of dread hanging over me lately.
I'm in a sort of stressful situation. I have a lot of responsibility at home, lots of work from school, plus a new part-time job. I feel like I'm constantly in a sea of depression or worry or discomfort, and worst of all constant thoughts that I'm going to die. It's hard to even think of comforting things because I'll think "I'm probably going to die of some random ailment soon, so what's the point?" It's driving me nuts and I don't know if I should be legitimately scared or not.
I'm sorry for dragging on, but this has been driving me nuts for weeks! If it helps to know, I'm on a 10mg celexa daily medication schedule. I really don't know if any of this is normal, or if there's something seriously wrong with me, or what to even do! (also my parents are getting fed up with my constant discovery of new "symptoms"). Can anybody relate??
So I'm an obsessive-compulsive/depressed person with a fear of dying and some (typically minor) anxiety issues. I've had a few bad attacks, but nothing too awful. My depression and OCD are usually the worst of it. But since the week university started, I've been super anxious all the time with a lot of it manifesting in hypochondria. A few days before school started, I had trouble falling asleep (jolting awake). I chalked it up to anxiety and was able to fall asleep normally again soon. Then I'd wake up with "numbness"--or perceived numbness, I'd feel as if I was numb but I could still feel things just fine and wasn't experiencing discoloration. I worried I had a heart condition for a few days. Then it was stomach cancer (I'd been experiencing a lack of appetite, fullness, feeling my stomach for bumps that I'm pretty sure are just fatty tissue, etc). Then it was anxiety about lymphoma. I gradually gained my appetite back, but now it's a fear of a brain tumor. I'll get tingling sensations in my head and body parts (like goosebumps, not so much like pins and needles). I'll feel like my hands aren't working properly (though they essentially are) and I'll experience moments where I feel distant from the world around me, and vision troubles (mostly from being nearsighted). I haven't had headaches really, but the worry is still there.
The attacks manifest like symptoms too, and usually in class so I'll feel trapped. Typical attacks usually occur when I perceive a "symptom" and my body panics more and more and develops more "symptoms." For instance, in class the other day I was worried my vision was screwing up when it just seemed to be eye strain from the lighting in the room. As the class dragged on, my head would start to feel heavy or my face muscles would feel stiff and I'd begin to panic about a brain problem or potentially fainting. My symptoms usually ebb away once I'm home, where I tend to feel most calm. I also feel a lot of dread hanging over me lately.
I'm in a sort of stressful situation. I have a lot of responsibility at home, lots of work from school, plus a new part-time job. I feel like I'm constantly in a sea of depression or worry or discomfort, and worst of all constant thoughts that I'm going to die. It's hard to even think of comforting things because I'll think "I'm probably going to die of some random ailment soon, so what's the point?" It's driving me nuts and I don't know if I should be legitimately scared or not.
I'm sorry for dragging on, but this has been driving me nuts for weeks! If it helps to know, I'm on a 10mg celexa daily medication schedule. I really don't know if any of this is normal, or if there's something seriously wrong with me, or what to even do! (also my parents are getting fed up with my constant discovery of new "symptoms"). Can anybody relate??