jdurant2
09-06-2013, 08:56 AM
I am currently enrolled in college and everytime I go to a lab or I go to a class, I feel like I am going to pass out. It causes me to not want to go to school. I am afraid to ask questions because I will sound stupid and this all leads to me being afraid of going to school because I anticipate it happening again. I know that these thoughts are irrational but I still continue to think about them all the time. I actually will have such strong anxiety that I cannot think because my mind is racing about how I look or if I even make sense. I always am trying to fight my anxiety by forcing it to turn itself off which never works out. I always tell myself before school that I am going to just relax and not worry about what others thing, yet I still have these strong numb sensations whenever I am at school. I feel my heart rate pounding all the time, where just recently I found my heart rate very low at times. I am a hypochondriac which makes me tone into my inner feelings all day. I always think about my heart, my head and other parts of the body where I have no control over. I feel myself trying to rush through everything only to find my self having to go back because I am rushing. I also believe that I am having panic attacks that last longer than the typical 20 minutes because I will sometimes feel out of my body for all of school. I really cannot learn this way. I know I have social anxiety but I also know that I need to get this problem under control. I have been to therapy but I did not feel like that helped me at all. I also may be suffering from PTSD, but I am not a doctor and cannot make that diagnosis. My other post explained a lot about what happened to cause this.