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08-30-2013, 09:54 AM
Hi all!
Itīs 2 months roughly since I posted last time and I felt like my anxiety, thoughts and symptoms have went out of control lately to make a new post now. I have been doing quite nice but I know that my anxiety has been accumulating for few weeks. Okay, lets move on to symptoms that tend to freak me out. Approximately a week ago I felt intense tightness in my chest that was accompanied by a shortness of breath, tense abdominal muscles, upset stomach and some more. At that moment I felt that something is seriously wrong with me and my life and so I decided to make changes. I eliminated some of my stress sources and now it feels like there is no any big external stress source in my life. But my hypochondria flared up intensely. So this Monday I thought it would be lovely to have some beer to help me relax, but it hadnīt any considerable impact on me. There is one thing to note though - I hadnīt been drinking any alcohol for 2 months prior to Monday drinking. And now to the core problems: this Wednesday I felt extreme fear for my own life. I was convinced I am going to die. I was completely terrified. Those symptoms I had were absolutely weird - no classical panic attack or anxiety attack symptoms like excess of energy, hyperventilation and so on. No. It was something like that: I felt very very weak and exhausted, my breathing seemed like normal, but my thoughts were driving me crazy. I didnīt feel my heart beating, I had confusion, depersonalization, I felt like my breathing just stops and my mind shuts down. My eyes were crazy, exhausted and lazy. The next day I was again convinced that I am going to die, a was very weak but I was extremely terrified. So I went to doctor, made ECG which was normal and I thought itīs just my mind tricking. So I kind of relaxed and spent the rest of the day quite well. Today I was too very surprised that I feel like normal guy and donīt think only about imminent death. But just few hours ago it happened again - this very weakness, confusion, unreal, dizzy and yet anxious and scared to death. I am suspecting diabetes though I donīt want to eat all the time, not feeling thirsty and not having a frequent urge to visit bathroom, so basically diabetes should be impossible, but I still think I have it in some form. No one in my family is diabetic. I donīt want to trouble my GP anymore for additional tests. I think itīs just all in my mind. Did someone of you have that same strange anxiety? I canīt describe it better as just relaxed body mixed with extreme anxiety. Very weird!
Itīs 2 months roughly since I posted last time and I felt like my anxiety, thoughts and symptoms have went out of control lately to make a new post now. I have been doing quite nice but I know that my anxiety has been accumulating for few weeks. Okay, lets move on to symptoms that tend to freak me out. Approximately a week ago I felt intense tightness in my chest that was accompanied by a shortness of breath, tense abdominal muscles, upset stomach and some more. At that moment I felt that something is seriously wrong with me and my life and so I decided to make changes. I eliminated some of my stress sources and now it feels like there is no any big external stress source in my life. But my hypochondria flared up intensely. So this Monday I thought it would be lovely to have some beer to help me relax, but it hadnīt any considerable impact on me. There is one thing to note though - I hadnīt been drinking any alcohol for 2 months prior to Monday drinking. And now to the core problems: this Wednesday I felt extreme fear for my own life. I was convinced I am going to die. I was completely terrified. Those symptoms I had were absolutely weird - no classical panic attack or anxiety attack symptoms like excess of energy, hyperventilation and so on. No. It was something like that: I felt very very weak and exhausted, my breathing seemed like normal, but my thoughts were driving me crazy. I didnīt feel my heart beating, I had confusion, depersonalization, I felt like my breathing just stops and my mind shuts down. My eyes were crazy, exhausted and lazy. The next day I was again convinced that I am going to die, a was very weak but I was extremely terrified. So I went to doctor, made ECG which was normal and I thought itīs just my mind tricking. So I kind of relaxed and spent the rest of the day quite well. Today I was too very surprised that I feel like normal guy and donīt think only about imminent death. But just few hours ago it happened again - this very weakness, confusion, unreal, dizzy and yet anxious and scared to death. I am suspecting diabetes though I donīt want to eat all the time, not feeling thirsty and not having a frequent urge to visit bathroom, so basically diabetes should be impossible, but I still think I have it in some form. No one in my family is diabetic. I donīt want to trouble my GP anymore for additional tests. I think itīs just all in my mind. Did someone of you have that same strange anxiety? I canīt describe it better as just relaxed body mixed with extreme anxiety. Very weird!