fireflytech
11-02-2007, 10:04 PM
hi my name is ted. I'm a canadian 33 and I'm living in china. these past two months have been tough. i suffer, like many of you, from panic and anxiety. my last spell was 10 years ago but the last few months have brought them back. in sept I went to the hospital with a fever and I found out I had pneumonia. I didn't even know I had it. then I started to worry about it because after the doc said it went away I still had chest pain. slowly the pain went away but then I got the common cold. I 'm now back on antibiotics because of the worry that pneumonia might come back. also I worry now the antibotics are not strong enough or its the antibiotics that have brought back the lung and chest pain. so right now I suffer from lots of anxiety and panic. some days good some bad. what maks this tough is that I am in a strange country and have suffered an illness. at this point I am depressed, worried, and full of anxiety. deep down inside I know this will pass (as it did 10 years ago) but I hope look for friends back home (I mean people who speak english and western culture) and understand what I am going through. China's culture is not developed enough to deal with mental illness. my whole time here in this country has been tough and I could write a book about it but for now I just need my health to be better so my mind can be better.