AnxietyAmbz
08-20-2013, 12:06 PM
Do we have a point were we can't handle anymore because today I feel im not far from it.
I suffered anxiety after my son had an operation it started when around doctors/hospitals.
then I the symptoms of anxiety/anxiety attack made me worse were I don't go very far from
my home were I feel I hit a wall of panic something bad will happen. I started this will feeling
more positive learning to distract myself when these attacks are building and not clock watching
all day and just floating through them like my book says and letting time pass and my confidence
build. I had my first therapy phone call yesterday which was nerve racking as i'm not a talker and felt
a bit embarrassed but I got through it. THEN today I after a year of no contact pretty much from my
ex. hes demanding I meet him with my son or hes applying for a court order. Now I feel im at my
total worse, not only i'm a worrying going out & hitting this wall o panic i'm worrying of bumping into
him. Now I'm not only trying to distract myself from worrying of a panic attack, i'm trying to distract
myself of thoughts of court (how I don't think il manage to get there) and how hes going to affect my
son. I no not many people may no understand the situation, but I just feel sooooo fed up like my son
the only thing keeping me going cause im sick of battling something. ive been so shut off today not
wanting to talk again incase I trigger an attack, been staring blankly at the television but not taken in
what it says. I feel I cant do anything but be wraped up in my worries. is this normal??
I suffered anxiety after my son had an operation it started when around doctors/hospitals.
then I the symptoms of anxiety/anxiety attack made me worse were I don't go very far from
my home were I feel I hit a wall of panic something bad will happen. I started this will feeling
more positive learning to distract myself when these attacks are building and not clock watching
all day and just floating through them like my book says and letting time pass and my confidence
build. I had my first therapy phone call yesterday which was nerve racking as i'm not a talker and felt
a bit embarrassed but I got through it. THEN today I after a year of no contact pretty much from my
ex. hes demanding I meet him with my son or hes applying for a court order. Now I feel im at my
total worse, not only i'm a worrying going out & hitting this wall o panic i'm worrying of bumping into
him. Now I'm not only trying to distract myself from worrying of a panic attack, i'm trying to distract
myself of thoughts of court (how I don't think il manage to get there) and how hes going to affect my
son. I no not many people may no understand the situation, but I just feel sooooo fed up like my son
the only thing keeping me going cause im sick of battling something. ive been so shut off today not
wanting to talk again incase I trigger an attack, been staring blankly at the television but not taken in
what it says. I feel I cant do anything but be wraped up in my worries. is this normal??