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08-19-2013, 10:23 AM
Hello all,
It seems I have gotten myself into a rut this summer. I am constantly worried about my sexual health because about 2 years ago I was told that I may have chronic itching in my genital area after a bad yeast infection. The doctor could not really diagnose what was wrong, but now I think it was my guilt and worry that I had something serious wrong with me after hooking up with a very sleazy guy in a down point in my life. My last boyfriend really made me afraid of sex after attempting to force himself on me. I have been to the gyno many times and have tested negative for everything. Recently I have begun to get pains in my groin area and have been to several doctors, all of which told me it was a muscle pull or nerve pain. I still worry that the doctors are wrong and that I actually have HIV or something horrible after googling symptoms constantly. The worst part of it is that I feel as though I'm dying after I masturbate. My stomach starts to hurt and I get virus-like symptoms. I can't find any condition that would cause this and have not told anyone about it out of embarrassment and fear of sounding crazy.
My last trip to the doctors over the worrying and new symptoms (nausea, vomiting one day, diarrhea the next, rapid heart beat, deliriousness, panicking about breathing, feeling like I'm dying, a drunken feeling while awake) led him to tell me that I have anxiety and I was put on medication for it. I constantly think I have different diseases and go from one to the next, mainly because I can't believe that these symptoms are just anxiety. I feel as though there must be something seriously wrong and that I couldn't possibly create these symptoms in my mind physically. Usually when I feel ill there is a physical cause for it. I feel as though I don't trust doctors and that they do not listen to me. So now I am battling panic attacks and evidently anxiety over my general health and sexual health and find no reassurance from doctors.Has anyone else experienced anything like this?
It seems I have gotten myself into a rut this summer. I am constantly worried about my sexual health because about 2 years ago I was told that I may have chronic itching in my genital area after a bad yeast infection. The doctor could not really diagnose what was wrong, but now I think it was my guilt and worry that I had something serious wrong with me after hooking up with a very sleazy guy in a down point in my life. My last boyfriend really made me afraid of sex after attempting to force himself on me. I have been to the gyno many times and have tested negative for everything. Recently I have begun to get pains in my groin area and have been to several doctors, all of which told me it was a muscle pull or nerve pain. I still worry that the doctors are wrong and that I actually have HIV or something horrible after googling symptoms constantly. The worst part of it is that I feel as though I'm dying after I masturbate. My stomach starts to hurt and I get virus-like symptoms. I can't find any condition that would cause this and have not told anyone about it out of embarrassment and fear of sounding crazy.
My last trip to the doctors over the worrying and new symptoms (nausea, vomiting one day, diarrhea the next, rapid heart beat, deliriousness, panicking about breathing, feeling like I'm dying, a drunken feeling while awake) led him to tell me that I have anxiety and I was put on medication for it. I constantly think I have different diseases and go from one to the next, mainly because I can't believe that these symptoms are just anxiety. I feel as though there must be something seriously wrong and that I couldn't possibly create these symptoms in my mind physically. Usually when I feel ill there is a physical cause for it. I feel as though I don't trust doctors and that they do not listen to me. So now I am battling panic attacks and evidently anxiety over my general health and sexual health and find no reassurance from doctors.Has anyone else experienced anything like this?