Unlivable Life...

[battle1]

Hello I'm 17 years old im a male and i currently am a senior in my highschool next year i will be going to college. But my life has been unlivable for almost a year now and i want my life back. I have a girlfriend whom i've been dating for almost 2 and a half years and i have always been a faithful guy in my life. The thing is, i have several disturbing thoughts that i don't want to think about or want to come to my mind. It's been a year since they first showed up and almost a month and a half since they started to disturb me so much. Thoughts are basically about my own self. How faithful iam, how much i trust her, how much i love her, how much i love other people and care for them, how good a person i am... etc. But sometimes i think about how much others(including my girlfriend) love me and trust me and so on... It feels as if my body is producing way too much adrenaline than it should and i always have a strange feeling inside my chest that bothers me all the time. The most disturbing and the one thought that is in my head most of the time is that i like other women. But in reality, i dont. And it's just a feeling that is the situation was so, but i know it isn't. But it still disturbs me. And i don't have to see a beatiful or hot woman or an ugly woman to think like that, all it needs to comeback is for me to remember that such feeling disturbs me and is present and happens occasionally. I can't live anymore and i hope someone can help me.

Sorry if i couldn't tell the exact way i feel throughout the day i'm not a native speaker so thanks for any comment.

[DodgingRain]

Speaking as a male it's normal to be attracted to other women regardless of if your in a committed relationship or not. Thinking that won't happen is completely unrealistic.

I don't know the ground rules of your current relationship but what generally matters is if you act on it or not.

[battle1]

Speaking as a male it's normal to be attracted to other women regardless of if your in a committed relationship or not. Thinking that won't happen is completely unrealistic.

I don't know the ground rules of your current relationship but what generally matters is if you act on it or not.
I dont care about how pretty or hot a girl is but my problem that my OCD thoughts think like iam and im not happy i feel awful and i dont know maybe there is another problem and i misunderstood it. But it is mostly triggered when i think that i have such a prpblem or such unhappiness in my life.

[alankay]

You will always notice the girls.:) Always, it's the way it always has been, is and always will be. All men are like this. The gals notice the guys too just maybe a bit less. It's the testosterone IMHO.
Have you seen a doc about all this? "Too much adrenaline" does sound like anxiety. If this is "unbearable" you need to see a pdoc to get started feeling better so you can be the person you want to be for those you love and your own happiness as well. Alankay

[battle1]

You will always notice the girls.:) Always, it's the way it always has been, is and always will be. All men are like this. The gals notice the guys too just maybe a bit less. It's the testosterone IMHO.
Have you seen a doc about all this? "Too much adrenaline" does sound like anxiety. If this is "unbearable" you need to see a pdoc to get started feeling better so you can be the person you want to be for those you love and your own happiness as well. Alankay

Could it be anxiety or ocd? I really feel too much adrenaline but i didn't take it seriously. Also i suffer from sinusitis and my nose is stuffy sometimes and could that cause some sort of lack of oxygen sent to my brain?

[DodgingRain]

Something is triggering the adrenaline like rush..

Are you concerned that looking at other girls and seeing things you like is wrong because it makes you feel guilty and like others can't trust you as much as you think they should?

Or is it that when you see another girl you feel unhappy with your current relationship and you don't think you should feel that way?

Or is it just hormones?, at 17 you should have a lot and a lot of girls are going to trigger a reaction which is entirely normal. Lol, I'm not sure I'd call that an adrenaline like rush but it's a rush all right.

Something is making you feel this way, the question is what? I doubt it has anything to do with sinusitis.

[battle1]

Something is triggering the adrenaline like rush..

Are you concerned that looking at other girls and seeing things you like is wrong because it makes you feel guilty and like others can't trust you as much as you think they should?

Or is it that when you see another girl you feel unhappy with your current relationship and you don't think you should feel that way?

Or is it just hormones?, at 17 you should have a lot and a lot of girls are going to trigger a reaction which is entirely normal. Lol, I'm not sure I'd call that an adrenaline like rush but it's a rush all right.

Something is making you feel this way, the question is what? I doubt it has anything to do with sinusitis.

Im not sure. Let me give you an example:

Let's say im roaming on internet and just saw an article i find interesting. I click on it and then the page loads. And suddenly i see the picture of the writer. If the writer is a female than i see her the first thing that comes up to my mind is some sort of stress, then i dont find her hot, pretty or anything(age doesn't matter) and i start reading the article. Then if the picture of the writer is still visible, i feel as if i liked that woman and that i couldnt control myself. But in reality, im ok if i find a girl hot or pretty, and also i dont find anyone hot or pretty i dont want to have sex with anyone(other than my girlfriend) i'm so sick of this feeling, it ruins my life.

[alankay]

Just seems like you are a bit obsessed and anxious about this all. It's not a compulsion(to act) so maybe it is an obsession issue which really anxiety is. The worrying or rumination are similar to obsessing and why AD's help. Alankay

[battle1]

So what can i do?

[alankay]

If it were me I would see either a psychologist to see if there is some underlying issue but if that's too costly it might be better to make an appointment with a psychiatrist(pdoc). Like me I'm sure you're reluctant but that's the day I started to get better years ago. He will do a background interview to make sure you really don't need a psychologist(he'll refer if you do).
Then he may prescribe a med or just make other recommendations. I wish I had a better answer.
Just remember, if you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always gotten.
A family doc might also be good to get started with.
PM me any time. Alankay