Scared.

[starbryte76]

Hi everyone. I'm new here. I just wanna intro myself to you. I'm 37& have been living with severe panic attacks from the age of 17. I had no clue what they were for a few years until a lady told me that they were panic attacks.
I have social anxiety/agoraphobia as a DX.
For years I self medicated, ignored it, took psych meds, etc. there were even periods of time they went away completely!
It's been so hard my friends. I've missed out on so damned much and have felt so hopeless and worthless.
Useless.
I'm seeing a pretty good psych and she has me on meds I'm scared to take. I've been taking half doses with her guidance and they help but don't erase them completely.
Lately I've been having multiple attacks daily.
I feel so alone and lonely. I can't find anyone here to relate to. I often pray for a cool friend to pal around with.
I feel foolish and ashamed of myself saying all this to you all.
Rejection is soul crushing to me.
Then my anxiety begins when I obsess on health issues, death, etc.
Lately anything triggers them. If I could sleep to avoid them I would.
I feel like this is all over the place. Please forgive that.
I've loved the things I read here. So many ppl I can relate too. It makes me feel better. I def want to stick around. I haven't felt comfortable anywhere in a long time.
Thanks for listening. Hope to meet some friends here and find support. <3

[vic]

Hya I'm 31 and have live with panic attacks since i was 13 I've ad years without also or just the odd one on occasions. But last few months I've started getting my attacks bad again due to a hell of a lot of stress it brought on panic attacks almost daily and depression also slight agrophobia as I was fearing going out. The thing is to fear death and illness is very very natural and normal everyone fears it but it does become abnormal with uz anxiety suffers as we constantly think about it we let it rule our lives and because we let our fears take over we stop living and enjoying what we actually have in life as the obsessive thoughts of illness and death take over everything we do and it's horrible as we get into a negertive state which we can not break alone.

[shoestring]

Wish I had advice. It's hard.