Anxiously anxious

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Hi all

I'm a first time poster and have had SA for as long as I can remember. I am nervous typing this but am doing so as am amongst like minded folk. hoping to not feel so isolated. Have recently had a baby and diagnosed with GAD and depression. Talking to people makes me feel ill as I continually self check everything that comes out of my mouth! It's very exhausting and feel sad that I always feel like Im presenting my 'best' face. I've done it for so long I don't know what it feels like to just 'be', I over think everything and its driving me nuts! Happy to chat/share with anyone else who understands.

[starbryte76]

Hi all

I'm a first time poster and have had SA for as long as I can remember. I am nervous typing this but am doing so as am amongst like minded folk. hoping to not feel so isolated. Have recently had a baby and diagnosed with GAD and depression. Talking to people makes me feel ill as I continually self check everything that comes out of my mouth! It's very exhausting and feel sad that I always feel like Im presenting my 'best' face. I've done it for so long I don't know what it feels like to just 'be', I over think everything and its driving me nuts! Happy to chat/share with anyone else who understands.

Hi SP! I have SA too. New here too. I know how u feel. I am forever double thinking my words. I feel as if I never say the right thing or that my words will tip ppl off to my "weirdness". I mean who in their right mind is scared to go out to the store and shop? I am. I'd rather sleep in a bed with bedbugs than go to a busy mall! Lolz
Congrats on your new baby. That's awesome. I'm jealous actually. I'd love a family but I'm terrified my panic attacks and social anxiety/agoraphobia will ruin it. Childless I stay. For now. I'm amazed I've been living with this for years. It's hard for me to have normal friends so I don't. I just wanted to say hi :)

[cor]

Hiya, I feel exactly the same as u do - I work full time and most people think I'm this happy bubbly person which I'm not at all it's just a face I mange to put on but the moment I'm quiet I get harassed what up with u ? and all that! It's driving me mad I suffer with ibs and because of that have gained anxiety - I feel a fake most of the time! And like u I really over think every thing I say so then when people look and frown or don't hear or say huh or eh I feel like I'm gonna blow as I have made sure I have said what I wanted correctly and concisely and they still can't be arsed to listen - I'm feeling myself getting angrier by the day as where I work u just get talked over if ur not the gobby one Actually peopl are just far too wrapped up in how fantasic they are to take one moment to ctyally listen to other people - I feel for u an feel very similar to how you do - minus the baby - congrats! Where are u from?

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Hi guys, thanks for replying to my post : ) Having SA is hard work, reading how you guys feel makes me feel like Im not the only person who is going through this. I really appreciate your responses.

Starbryte - I too feel your pain about shopping centres/malls. I've only been a few times of late and have to take my mum with me now I have the baby. As for having a baby, I knew I had SA before hand and had been on meds but came off them for the pregnancy. They allowed me to function but only just. As work pressure/responsibilities and social interaction increased I could feel myself getting worse. I thought when I got pregnant I'd have time out and it would just 'go away'!! How wrong was I?! Clearly I was optimistically delusional!! So I completely understand your concerns about coping with a baby. It's harder than I imagined but mainly because I was in denial about how I felt. Am back on meds and going to start CBT soon as I really need to 'face my fears' so I can be better for my little one.

Cor - Yes I too have the super bubbly front that disguises the hard work Im doing in my head. It's hard when you don't feel like people listen to you. I guess we struggle to get our voices heard. I struggle to be ok with my contribution to conversations and always beat myself up for what I do/don't say. In the end it's so very cruel how the mind turns on itself. I'm so much nicer to others than I am to myself, it makes me angry!! I'm an Aussie too btw. Where are you from?

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