Hello

[edan123]

I really don't know what to say... I have barely left my house for the past 2 - 3 years. I dropped out of school and started playing online games and smoking weed heavily (I literally haven't had a day in the past 2 years that I haven't been online for 10+ hours). I haven't seen any psychiatrists or doctors so I really don't know what is wrong with me at this point.
I'm scared of interacting with people down to the point of letting the phone ring out and haven't ever skyped with someone iv'e met online. I feel like i'm not getting enough oxygen all the time and worry about swallowing and other things being wrong with me. I feel like nothing is real, as if everything is hazy or I am in a dream.
I know I have severe anxiety and depression and just googled anxiety help and decided to post this lol... I don't know what i'm expecting to find here but I feel like it's just getting worse and worse and I just want my life back. I don't want to be some 40 year old playing rpgs living on benefits.
This isn't much of an introduction, I really didn't know what to write and am just going to press post now anyway lol...

[alankay]

You have anxiety of some type(social anxiety, GAD, etc), go see a pdoc and get treated. That's the best advise I can give.........anyone. Trust me they will know all about it. Alankay

[kelliesean]

Hi Edan :)

I think it's great that you are taking a first step in admitting you have issues and seeking some support here.
Obviously you have some things going on.. Seeking treatment and following through with that treatment is a challenge in itself! Many of us here can attest to that.. Some still have not gotten treatment.. And some of us are so happy that we did! I am one of the people who was very reluctant for so many years. But being in therapy and on medication has so changed my life for the better!! I can hardly believe it myself! I'm not "cured" but my quality of life has greatly improved and my anxieties are tremendously more manageable.

I am Have OCD, depression, panic disorder and I was very agoraphobic as well.. And I promise you that there is another way! You CAN live a fuller life..