So depressed and lonely

[ry1987]

I am 26 years old and even though I know I'm not alone...I still feel like the loneliest, saddest person to walk the Earth. I wake up in pain every single day. I don't have any friends anymore because my social anxiety and depression is through the roof. After you decline so many offers to hang out..people get sick of you and stop calling. I'm living proof of that. I feel like I can't make people understand that I'm even scared to go outside to my mailbox. They'd probably just think I'm nuts. I miss my old life and the way things used to be before this all happened to me. I've stopped leaving my house, have no job and no will to live. Lately I've been feeling like maybe I just wasn't meant for this life. After all my existence was an accident to begin with. I feel like death is my only escape and I can only hope that my soul would be reborn again and get a second chance. I'm tired of living in this body. In this reality. I want to be normal and not scared to live. But I am. I feel like if I ended it all I would finally be free of this suffering and mental anguish. If I can't leave my house, have friends or stop suffering in my head...what good is living?

[everyday.i.am.struggling]

hey. I am new here and I specifically signed up to respond to your post, I couldn't just ignore this.
I just wanted to let you know you are not alone. Hugs to you.

[lalouba_jane]

:(

Hello. I didn't want to read and run so thought you should know that there are people out there who understand.

I'm coming up for 26 now so I'm around your age, and it feels like being in an old body. I imagine that all of these pains and health complaints are what it feels like to be 85.

I have a two year old daughter so staying in all the time isn't an option for me, but I know that without her I wouldn't go out either. It's scary feeling this way.

Do you have any specific fears about going out?

You're in the right place for people to talk to... Lots of love and a big hug as it sounds like you need it :(

[brian_s_21]

Your not alone why are you scare to go out ?

[jessy]

You are not alone in how you feel , I also feel this way
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