Im straight up lonely!

[nichuughes]

don't need to sugar coat it! living in a small town, no one seems to get me. been with severe chronic anxiety and depression for years now. just at a loss. anyone out there with success stories? anyone know the point of putting up with life's bullshit just to have to forever do it by yourself? how can I be happy when I'm always alone? I don't enjoy my own company either.. my mind is a cage! just need to know I'm not the only one... please share with me your miracles of success & own ways of coping! who knows... maybe something will spark an idea or inspiration in my own life, thanks.

[ADD]

don't need to sugar coat it! living in a small town, no one seems to get me. been with severe chronic anxiety and depression for years now. just at a loss. anyone out there with success stories? anyone know the point of putting up with life's bullshit just to have to forever do it by yourself? how can I be happy when I'm always alone? I don't enjoy my own company either.. my mind is a cage! just need to know I'm not the only one... please share with me your miracles of success & own ways of coping! who knows... maybe something will spark an idea or inspiration in my own life, thanks.

There those of us that live in extremely huge towns and still no one gets us (NY) lol. The only success story I can tell you that at the end of the day not family/friends/girlfriend/coworkers anyone for that matter won't understand you or dig you out, you and only you hold the key to opening up the cage and breaking free. Do not look any further then yourself. Go out there, push in every direction, there is definitely something that you like doing reach for it day and night.
Me sharing: Everything was going perfect girlfriend/job/family/social life and one night out with friends everything went upside down. Anxiety/panic attacks/agoraphobia you name it my room became my world my bed my house, food lost its taste, drinking water was a struggle, totally lost interest in everything and anything I became my own obsession. It totally drained me, I lost 40 pounds in a little over a month In other words I thought it was the end.
But hey I knew somehow I had to put on a fight, I mean that was the les I could do. So I decided to leave the nest, knowing full well that the moment I would step out of my doorstep I would start to suffer, but I pushed on an I found courage that I didn't think I have, with my senses on overdrive and over sensitive I would start to hang out with friends who wondered what happened to me. I would bite the inside of my checks out of anger thinking how did I arrive at this point while being only 26, forcing myself to pay attention to whatever people had to say while holding my ground. Well I can go on describing everything into great detail but I would bore you and everyone else reading this lol.. But in the end I'm at 97% normal again thank God, and I still push with everything I have and if i can do it so can YOU!!