So frustrated! Anyone else out there?

[leighlee]

I started reading threads yesterday and thought this might be a good place for support. I was wondering if anyone else has experienced anxiety with a phobia of being alone. It has completely debilitated me. It started off as anxiety, lots of stress, then loss. Then one day I didn't want to be alone when my husband was going to work. It then spun into not being able to being alone. My mom came back to live with me and my husband until I can get stronger. It has been two years. I have tried exposure, and I am just too uncomfortable. I started medication for the second time five weeks ago. I am so exhausted. I have seen a few therapists and feel like they have not been of much help. I gathered that I feel shamed and guilty for having anxiety and fear; having to depend on others. I just want my independence back. I feel so much pressure to just get BETTER. I have read countless books, try to only think positive things. I guess I just wanted to put all my feelings down to a group of people that I hope understand. No one seems to understand. I don't know how many times someone has told me to just be strong. I just keep fighting. Wondering if I will ever be able to embrace this life and live.

[tryingtobefree]

I also have the same fear of being alone. My fiancé used to be a truck driver and would be gone all week long so that meant that I was here with just my sons. Those were the worst times of my life. I experienced severe anxiety on a daily basis and it truly is debilitating. I was never like this before and I wish I could go back to the days were I was carefree and full of life. Instead I spend my days over analyzing every little thing that I have to do during the day and having irrational and fearful thoughts.

[mid]

Take time to look at the positive normal daily living activities you do, and use those to build your inner strength. One thing about anxiety, the more you move around, the faster the physical symptoms disappear. When you find your pattern of thought going off track, you use a positive image, word, and get it going again.

Best wishes.

[leighlee]

Take time to look at the positive normal daily living activities you do, and use those to build your inner strength. One thing about anxiety, the more you move around, the faster the physical symptoms disappear. When you find your pattern of thought going off track, you use a positive image, word, and get it going again.

Best wishes.

Thank you for your advice.