pblancha
07-10-2013, 07:50 PM
I have struggled with anxiety it seems most of my life. I don't think I realized what it was until I got older and it got to the point where I didn't know myself anymore.
I have everything I want in life, a great husband, amazing job, friends, supportive family, a dog and were expecting a baby in September. I literally have everything I ever wanted in life and I worked my ass off to get here and I sometimes can stop and see how far I"ve come. But most of the time I'm in a haze of anxiety and I can barely see what's right in front of me. I have developed social anxiety over the past few years and it's gotten to the point where I'm anxious around almost everyone except for my husband and mother. This bothers me because I used to be a very social person and now it's exhausting to me. This has hurt me in my social life and my career as a social worker. I will say something I think is weird and will ruminate on it for the rest of the day. I suck at eye contact and find it the most painful thing ever. I really don't know how I got here and I feel like I'm the only one who struggles with anxiety like this. I just want to be my old, outgoing, funny self but I'm so tense from anxiety day to day I can't enjoy my life. Please provide me some feedback or let me know if you can relate. thanks. it feels good to throw this all out there as hardly anyone in my life knows..
I have everything I want in life, a great husband, amazing job, friends, supportive family, a dog and were expecting a baby in September. I literally have everything I ever wanted in life and I worked my ass off to get here and I sometimes can stop and see how far I"ve come. But most of the time I'm in a haze of anxiety and I can barely see what's right in front of me. I have developed social anxiety over the past few years and it's gotten to the point where I'm anxious around almost everyone except for my husband and mother. This bothers me because I used to be a very social person and now it's exhausting to me. This has hurt me in my social life and my career as a social worker. I will say something I think is weird and will ruminate on it for the rest of the day. I suck at eye contact and find it the most painful thing ever. I really don't know how I got here and I feel like I'm the only one who struggles with anxiety like this. I just want to be my old, outgoing, funny self but I'm so tense from anxiety day to day I can't enjoy my life. Please provide me some feedback or let me know if you can relate. thanks. it feels good to throw this all out there as hardly anyone in my life knows..