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[justalitlbit]

Ok so I'm new here...I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for years, every since I was 13 I'm now 34. Some periods r great and then the dark moments come when it feels like absolutely nothing helps...the older I've gotten the worse its been...I find it harder and harder to b interested n any hobbies that I use to like anymore. The worse thing is I have a hubby and kids and I think they suffer more than anyone....my hubby knows I get depressed but he really doesn't truly understand what I'm going thru....sometimes I wanna leave him alone so he won't have to deal with it.

Now something new has happened...I've always been a little on the shy and quiet side but I've always had a decent amount of friends...but now the friends I have left (and family) I don't wanna talk to....I just have no interest, idk, even though I get lonely. I became a stay at home mom 3 years ago and now I'd rather not go anywhere or c anyone or meet anyone....this has not been me over the years but I HATE social settings.... Like church socials...I love church but I'd rather not socialize afterwards =\....ive even stopped social networking.....so annoying...but I'm here so at least I won't feel alone I guess...anyway sorry for rambling on.

[em1]

Hello and welcome I to have had panic attacks since I was 17 I'm now 38 I am a wife and a mother so I can relate to what your saying if you need anyone to chat to this is the right place to be as everyone on here is very helpful and lovely to talk to :)

[justalitlbit]

Thanks em=)...I've been reading thru some of the posts and already I can really relate to a lot of ppl here.

[Sedigive]

Sometimes I wonder if it ever really goes away :-( Sorry not trying to be a downer had a relapse today.

[justalitlbit]

Sometimes I wonder if it ever really goes away :-( Sorry not trying to be a downer had a relapse today.

I understand....my relapse started yesterday when I should have been perfectly happy...still trying to get past it today =\

[em1]

Thanks em=)...I've been reading thru some of the posts and already I can really relate to a lot of ppl here.

Yes there's so many on here with the same Symptoms and thoughts etc :)

[Sedigive]

I am happy to have found this site. Take care all.

[kushy26]

Hi nice to see in this forum.Keep :)

[justalitlbit]

Hi nice to see in this forum.Keep :)

Hi :) and thanx

[Applecherry]

The best thing you can do is just put on your happy face when around family. They aren't going to understand your anxiety and talking to them about it, is only going to make you both feel worse. I used to try and talk to family about my anxiety, it just made them upset, and confused, and I just felt guilty for making them feel worried... Now I take Zoloft after I had a meltdown last year where I thought I was having a stroke, I knew I put them through enough worry.. Anxiety and depression is really your own personal battle (it always is). There must be something you haven't done yet in life (that you wanna do?) that is making you feel depressed. That is the case with me. From my standpoint, your life seems more settled than mine. I'm 33, still single, and unemployed.. I've got anxiety 24/7 cause of this. Anyway, things that help me a bit are going for walks, and other forms of exercise.. and working on a hobby, even when I don't always feel like it, it gets me doing something other than thinking too much. Good luck in any case.. :)

[justalitlbit]

The best thing you can do is just put on your happy face when around family. They aren't going to understand your anxiety and talking to them about it, is only going to make you both feel worse. I used to try and talk to family about my anxiety, it just made them upset, and confused, and I just felt guilty for making them feel worried... Now I take Zoloft after I had a meltdown last year where I thought I was having a stroke, I knew I put them through enough worry.. Anxiety and depression is really your own personal battle (it always is). There must be something you haven't done yet in life (that you wanna do?) that is making you feel depressed. That is the case with me. From my standpoint, your life seems more settled than mine. I'm 33, still single, and unemployed.. I've got anxiety 24/7 cause of this. Anyway, things that help me a bit are going for walks, and other forms of exercise.. and working on a hobby, even when I don't always feel like it, it gets me doing something other than thinking too much. Good luck in any case.. :)

Yep being a stay at hone mom often times doesn't help...so I'm gonna try to start getting into some hobbies...and yep most of the time I don't feel like it...thanx for the advice :)

[Lin]

This period of depression has lasted for 3 years and for the first time I have not been able to socialise during it. It has ruined my home life because I ran our social life. I can't even talk to work colleagues outside of work because the pressure is too much. I have kept in touch with friends by texts and emails and just know that my real friends understand and will be there fore me once this terrible time us over and I can socialise again. Just have to not worry and not put pressure on yourself until stronger and have faith in your real friends to wait for you.