ssaann
06-21-2013, 11:56 AM
I am not sure where to go. I have a therapy sesion Monday but I need to last untill then without doing something crazy.
here is is:
I am sitting at work. Anxious. Not sure what to do. Long tory short. There is a guy I like, who is definetly not a good fit for me. he used to text every day..and the texts are not daily anymore. He has 2 kids..I am 23 female and he is 30 years old. His kids are 3 months apart from 2 differnt women. I come from a reservd family. I am very reveresed. So culturaly, moraly..we are on opposite ends. I am
He clearly has no time for me since he also works 2 jobs on top of everything. Yet, I am fixated. Because I want to chase him. That's the truth. I want to win him and then leave him. Just so I can prove I am good enough. Yes, it is so damn sick to think like me.
I get a lot of attention from guys, yet I reject them all and just get fixated with one man. Not the first time this happens to me. It makes me feel so lonely in the process. Since I get obssesed about an unavailable man. I am venting, and I want you to tell me that it is all in my head. That He is not worth my time..becuas eI know he is not.
I am afaid he will stop contact with me..and I will lose him. Even though we are just freinds...and yes we do hook up sometimes.
I can't think anymore..my mind is foggy..It feels as if I am in a dream..I am not here..
here is is:
I am sitting at work. Anxious. Not sure what to do. Long tory short. There is a guy I like, who is definetly not a good fit for me. he used to text every day..and the texts are not daily anymore. He has 2 kids..I am 23 female and he is 30 years old. His kids are 3 months apart from 2 differnt women. I come from a reservd family. I am very reveresed. So culturaly, moraly..we are on opposite ends. I am
He clearly has no time for me since he also works 2 jobs on top of everything. Yet, I am fixated. Because I want to chase him. That's the truth. I want to win him and then leave him. Just so I can prove I am good enough. Yes, it is so damn sick to think like me.
I get a lot of attention from guys, yet I reject them all and just get fixated with one man. Not the first time this happens to me. It makes me feel so lonely in the process. Since I get obssesed about an unavailable man. I am venting, and I want you to tell me that it is all in my head. That He is not worth my time..becuas eI know he is not.
I am afaid he will stop contact with me..and I will lose him. Even though we are just freinds...and yes we do hook up sometimes.
I can't think anymore..my mind is foggy..It feels as if I am in a dream..I am not here..