Ryaan
06-19-2013, 11:26 PM
Hello, My names Ryan, I can't seem to do anything but focus on my anxiety, So I may as well share my thoughts and experiences here.
I guess Iv'e always been battling anxiety, just never realized exactly what it was, until about a year ago or so.
I quit my job about 3 months ago in hopes to leave this place and get better, but it hasn't happened.... It's gotten worse, and I had my first panic attack about 3 months ago.
Iv'e always been a pot smoker (officially quit due to anxiety).
I got really high one night and was experiencing some pretty bad panic, so i decided to go for a walk, then one hit me, boom, tachycardia for the first time, HR of 150 that lasted for hours, i called 911, ambulance came, they thought I was on speed, they called police because I couldn't calm down, finally I got in the ambulance and they put me overnight, Gave me IV liquid because they thought I was ODing, finally one of them gave me an ATIVAN, and within 30 minutes My heart calmed down, they said my potassium was very low and gave me another IV bag, needless to say, this is the most traumatic thing iv'e ever gone through, and ever since then Iv'e developed panic disorder on top of my GAD.
My main fears
-dying
-heart attack
-going completely insane
-heart palpitations
-generally fear that something is wrong
My symptoms include
Lethargy
very bad sleep
Weakness
Depression
OCD like symptoms
Racing thoughts
Stomach problems
Twitchy nerves
Fatigue
and dirty persistent sexual thoughts
Detached from reality
I dont know Exactly where my anxiety is coming from, right now the only thing that comforts me is being alone and playing COD.
To calm myself i like to sit in the shower and just let the water hit me, and it actually helps.
I had a 24 hour monitor done and shit loads of tests done....
Doctor looked at me and told me it was in my fucking head?
I guess Iv'e always been battling anxiety, just never realized exactly what it was, until about a year ago or so.
I quit my job about 3 months ago in hopes to leave this place and get better, but it hasn't happened.... It's gotten worse, and I had my first panic attack about 3 months ago.
Iv'e always been a pot smoker (officially quit due to anxiety).
I got really high one night and was experiencing some pretty bad panic, so i decided to go for a walk, then one hit me, boom, tachycardia for the first time, HR of 150 that lasted for hours, i called 911, ambulance came, they thought I was on speed, they called police because I couldn't calm down, finally I got in the ambulance and they put me overnight, Gave me IV liquid because they thought I was ODing, finally one of them gave me an ATIVAN, and within 30 minutes My heart calmed down, they said my potassium was very low and gave me another IV bag, needless to say, this is the most traumatic thing iv'e ever gone through, and ever since then Iv'e developed panic disorder on top of my GAD.
My main fears
-dying
-heart attack
-going completely insane
-heart palpitations
-generally fear that something is wrong
My symptoms include
Lethargy
very bad sleep
Weakness
Depression
OCD like symptoms
Racing thoughts
Stomach problems
Twitchy nerves
Fatigue
and dirty persistent sexual thoughts
Detached from reality
I dont know Exactly where my anxiety is coming from, right now the only thing that comforts me is being alone and playing COD.
To calm myself i like to sit in the shower and just let the water hit me, and it actually helps.
I had a 24 hour monitor done and shit loads of tests done....
Doctor looked at me and told me it was in my fucking head?