I just want to be me again ! Xx

[juliemc30]

Hi everyone ,

I'm new to this . I am in here as I believe everyone here is very understanding and non judgemental as you all feel the same or have similar problems .

I have been suffering from anxiety and depression now for several months . I have a partner and 2 children whom I love with all my heart .

My poor partner had no understanding of how I feel , why I feel the way I do etc . But how can I expect him to when I don't understand myself .

Dies anyone else on here have partners who are finding this really hard to cope with ?

Xxxxxxx

[em1]

Hi everyone ,

I'm new to this . I am in here as I believe everyone here is very understanding and non judgemental as you all feel the same or have similar problems .

I have been suffering from anxiety and depression now for several months . I have a partner and 2 children whom I love with all my heart .

My poor partner had no understanding of how I feel , why I feel the way I do etc . But how can I expect him to when I don't understand myself .

Dies anyone else on here have partners who are finding this really hard to cope with ?

Xxxxxxx

Hello :) yes I like you have two children and a husband who don't get why I'm like this,I've had Anxiety, Panic attacks for years now,since I was 17 I'm now 38,it's a very hard thing to exsplain to someone who does not have it so I do understand how you feel,are you on anything for it? I'm here if you need to chat

[juliemc30]

Hi :) , yes I am on venlaflaxine 150mg 1 a day & propanolol (beta blockers ) 3 per day . The beta blockers are supposed to help me sleep but really don't .

I stuidly ended up in hospital on sat night as I drank on top of my daily meds and passed out . I never do that but was out for a friends birthday .
Was so scared and got kept in overnight .

All I want Is for my partner to just cuddle me and tell me he's here and that everything will get better but instead he just says he's sick of me crying and that I'm paranoid and if I got out my pjs then I might start feeling better which is probably true but he doesn't get if it was that easy then I would just do that .
Do u have any medication ? How do u feel today ?
Thank u for being here and any time u want to talk I'm here too :)

Xxx

[juliemc30]

Goodness that's a long time u have suffered from this .
You must be a very strong person with courage and determination to deal with it for that length of time xx

[em1]

Goodness that's a long time u have suffered from this .
You must be a very strong person with courage and determination to deal with it for that length of time xx

I look at it this way,nothing I have felt has killed me,yes they are Crippling sometimes but I have just got on with it,that was untill two weeks ago,the thought that came in to my
Head was I was going to go to prison because I did something to my children( which is so scary and has made me so ill and fear I was going mad) now I know I'm not and it's part of the Anxiety being really sneaky,as I was not falling for the panics and the fear I was going to die anymore so that's why I went to the doctors,I sat there and said everything what I was feeling etc,she's has put me on 50g of sertraline and in on The same beta blockers as you to (I'm from the uk) I've been on the beta blockers for years in and off and they are really good for me,I've only been on the sertraline for just over two weeks now and I know it takes a good 4/6 weeks to feel the full Effect,I will get better again,this will not beat me no way,I'm also going to have Therapy which I've never had be4,I want this gone for good and I will win :) x

[JennJenn]

I too suffer from anxiety and here lately more so than ever. I keep apologizing to my husband and he says its ok but I also say I know your sick of it and he says not to worry about it. I take that as yeah he is sick of it since he doesn't say he isn't and I worry I may push him away. I know he loves me and just does not want me going through this but I don't know what to do. I am just on 50mg of Zoloft and nothing more because I am afraid of getting addicted. What can I do? I want my life back. I am 30 and have been dealing with this since I got out of high school. I see a therapist and it seems to help but I am noticing that any changes to my life bring on anxiety. UGH It gets so frustrating.

[juliemc30]

I am also 30 hunni and I feel exact same as u . I just feel like I'm going to lose my partner so I try harder to be ok and the more I try the more I stress myself out and just makes anxiety worse . He says he just doesn't understand how I can feel the way i do but I can't explain to him why I feel like this as I don't know . I haven't seen a therapist yet but really want to start . I am on my 5th different tablet in a year as I also suffer from insomnia which with having my two little boys is a nitemare as I'm just exhausted all the time .

[juliemc30]

I look at it this way,nothing I have felt has killed me,yes they are Crippling sometimes but I have just got on with it,that was untill two weeks ago,the thought that came in to my
Head was I was going to go to prison because I did something to my children( which is so scary and has made me so ill and fear I was going mad) now I know I'm not and it's part of the Anxiety being really sneaky,as I was not falling for the panics and the fear I was going to die anymore so that's why I went to the doctors,I sat there and said everything what I was feeling etc,she's has put me on 50g of sertraline and in on The same beta blockers as you to (I'm from the uk) I've been on the beta blockers for years in and off and they are really good for me,I've only been on the sertraline for just over two weeks now and I know it takes a good 4/6 weeks to feel the full Effect,I will get better again,this will not beat me no way,I'm also going to have Therapy which I've never had be4,I want this gone for good and I will win :) x

I'm also from the uk hunni . I'm am so happy u are thinking so positive and yes you will win . We can all beat this :) xxx

[kelliesean]

So interesting that so many people here are from the UK.. I'm starting to think I should just move there.. I am a face and body painter (as u can see I. My avatar pic .. And m what I see face and body painting is much more practiced and valued in the UK.. Plus the illusions magazine has its headquarters there too ;)). And I share all this anxiety with you fine folks too!! Lol ;) (kidding.. Kind of)

[em1]

I'm also from the uk hunni . I'm am so happy u are thinking so positive and yes you will win . We can all beat this :) xxx

How did yours first start? How long have you had them?

[kelliesean]

I am also 30 hunni and I feel exact same as u . I just feel like I'm going to lose my partner so I try harder to be ok and the more I try the more I stress myself out and just makes anxiety worse . He says he just doesn't understand how I can feel the way i do but I can't explain to him why I feel like this as I don't know . I haven't seen a therapist yet but really want to start . I am on my 5th different tablet in a year as I also suffer from insomnia which with having my two little boys is a nitemare as I'm just exhausted all the time .

Me and em1 have talked before about our similarities here, and for the time that we have suffered w these crippling illnesses (I was about 14.. Now I am 35)..
I have been w my husband since I am 17.. And he has 2 sisters and his mom, all of who suffer with anxiety disorders. I remember when I first admitted to him that I had these disorders.. I think I fell deeper in love with him from his reaction.. Which was "oh yeah (as though It was normal lol)., my sisters and mom have all that).. He has always been supportive.. Even nowadays.. I wake up late at night a lot panicking.. And if he sees my phone out in the am (a sign that I was up and about in the night)., he will ask if I was up. N I may tell him I had a lot of anxiety.. But didn't want to wake him. He will say "you can wake me".. Which is so SO sweet..

However.. Even with all of his understanding.. He had some difficulties dealing with my mental illness at certain points in our life together.. There was one point before we had kids (I have two boys.. Ages 9 & 6).. He got a bit frustrated once when I was going through a terrible bout of agoraphobia.. N snapped at me w "how the hell can I have kids with you?? How will you be able to simply go food shopping? How will I be able to leave for wk and you be alone w our kids??"

Sometimes my illness does put a stress on our relationship.. And understandably he has a difficult time.. But that's part of having a relationship.. We all have our good and bad that we bring to the table ..

Maybe you guys can see a counselor together.. Someone who can help your husband to better understand what you are going through, and also to help him to understand how he can be more supportive.

[JennJenn]

I don't have children and now I wonder if that is a good thing since at times I can hardly function when I have anxiety attacks. I always wanted kids but now I think that this is so crippling at times, how would I be able to take care of a kid. I literally close myself off from people and it seems like I almost go into my own little world. I still have to function with my job and everything but man on man it is hard at times.

[kelliesean]

I don't have children and now I wonder if that is a good thing since at times I can hardly function when I have anxiety attacks. I always wanted kids but now I think that this is so crippling at times, how would I be able to take care of a kid. I literally close myself off from people and it seems like I almost go into my own little world. I still have to function with my job and everything but man on man it is hard at times.

Yeah.. I suppose the best way to think about it all is that we have to try and live our lives as fully as we can.. With that being said having a child is a very personal decision :)

I'm glad I have my babies.. But of course when I get good and depressed I feel guilty that I have brought them into my "mess".. But people around me wd say that's ridiculous..
My kids are happy healthy individuals who bring such joy to me and my family.. They have no idea about wht I struggle with..

And even still.. Having a child.. Like any life long commitment we make in living.. Comes with its uncertainties and no guarantees.. But I know there are parents out there who may not suffer fm these kids of mental disorders.. But they have other issues..

So! Hmmm.. A lot to think about lol..

[JennJenn]

My Hubby and I always wanted children but I wonder if I am strong enough. My best friend has a child and it just increased my anxiety so much yesterday when he cried. I love kids... I do. I am just worried that I would be horrible if I have these attacks because I kinda go off into my own little world. Its sad actually. I feel selfish but sometimes it is to much to always have to explain my feelings to someone who may not understand.

[em1]

My husband has been more understanding the last two weeks as he knows I've been bad with everything and did not cope very well at all,I was not eating anything I lost a stone in weight and I just wanted to die and not live like this no more,I was so scared of my dark thoughts and it was killing me,I felt like I was going to turn in to. Nutcase over night,I know I'm not I know it's the Anxiety,I know I'm going to get better and be back to how I was,yes it may take time and I may get crapy days and good days,but I won't let this take over me like this ever again as bad as it had been,I love life and I adore my family :) x

[em1]

So interesting that so many people here are from the UK.. I'm starting to think I should just move there.. I am a face and body painter (as u can see I. My avatar pic .. And m what I see face and body painting is much more practiced and valued in the UK.. Plus the illusions magazine has its headquarters there too ;)). And I share all this anxiety with you fine folks too!! Lol ;) (kidding.. Kind of)

Wow what a wicked job :)

[JennJenn]

My husband has been more understanding the last two weeks as he knows I've been bad with everything and did not cope very well at all,I was not eating anything I lost a stone in weight and I just wanted to die and not live like this no more,I was so scared of my dark thoughts and it was killing me,I felt like I was going to turn in to. Nutcase over night,I know I'm not I know it's the Anxiety,I know I'm going to get better and be back to how I was,yes it may take time and I may get crapy days and good days,but I won't let this take over me like this ever again as bad as it had been,I love life and I adore my family :) x


I too love life and my hubby and at times my job! i am thankful but I too am scared of going crazy and my hubby getting tired of it. Does it ever go away and stay away?

[kelliesean]

I too love life and my hubby and at times my job! i am thankful but I too am scared of going crazy and my hubby getting tired of it. Does it ever go away and stay away?

Medication helps TREMENDOUSLY.. I was AMAZED at my recovery..

I still had little anxieties and obsessions creeping occasionally. But they didn't consume my life.. Medication made it possible for me to fight..

[em1]

I too love life and my hubby and at times my job! i am thankful but I too am scared of going crazy and my hubby getting tired of it. Does it ever go away and stay away?

I've had mine for years and I learn to cope with it,like I would have one once in a while not everyday so I hope I can get back to that again soon :) and no you won't go crazy lol

[JennJenn]

Medication helps TREMENDOUSLY.. I was AMAZED at my recovery..

I still had little anxieties and obsessions creeping occasionally. But they didn't consume my life.. Medication made it possible for me to fight..

I am so scared of medications and getting addicted. what do you take if you dont mind me asking and does it make you feel like a zombie.

[juliemc30]

How did yours first start? How long have you had them?

I had financial problems away at beginning of last year , was unable to work due to a knee operation and everything just got in top of me . My oldest son now 10 had behavioural problems and the health visitor and go we're no help at all with him . He has been a lot better but still awaiting an appointment with children's hospital . My sister and partner knew something was wrong as I was taking kids to school and coming home and going to bed every day . I guess that's when I felt it start . It just progressed from there doctor tried me in 2 strengths of citalopran but didn't help then onto 50mg of venlaflaxine then up to 150mg them + beta blockers and I take 4 phergram tablets an hour before bed but still wide awake til around 4.30 am and alarm goes off at 6.15 am . Think I got used to tiredness for a while but now I'm just so exhausted and emotions are all over place . I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy .

How did yours start hunni ?
Have u found anything that helps u ? Xxxx

[JennJenn]

I've had mine for years and I learn to cope with it,like I would have one once in a while not everyday so I hope I can get back to that again soon :) and no you won't go crazy lol


How do you cope. Do you do breathing exercises? I tried those and they definitely help I also went on you tube and listened to relaxation techniques and it too helps but I cant get rid of the nervousness. Its like I am always afraid of the next attack.

[juliemc30]

I tried breathing techniques and have relaxation music on the iPod I listen to at night it does help calm me down but like u the nervousness is horrible . I had a horrible attack at my children's school while going to pick them up . I just froze and felt sick to my stomach was awful . I felt so embarrassed that I fear every day I go to pick them up now , I try to push myself to go out and about more but it's so hard doing it on ur own . Xxx

[juliemc30]

I am so scared of medications and getting addicted. what do you take if you dont mind me asking and does it make you feel like a zombie.

I take venlaflaxine 150mg once per day + beta blockers 3 times per day and an hour before bed I take 4 phergrams to try make me sleepy but with no affect :( . I'm the same I always worry the drugs make u too dependant or make u worse xxxx

[em1]

How do you cope. Do you do breathing exercises? I tried those and they definitely help I also went on you tube and listened to relaxation techniques and it too helps but I cant get rid of the nervousness. Its like I am always afraid of the next attack.

Yes I do that to,self help books,I also use Lavender room spray and lavender oils in my bath,I am on tablets now but I'm not going stay on them forever if I can :) please feel free to send me a message anytime you need to chat :)

[em1]

I was not gr8 when I first started on the Meds and I've only been on them just over two weeks now but please don't be scared to go in them if you need to,they have helped me loads :)

[kelliesean]

I am so scared of medications and getting addicted. what do you take if you dont mind me asking and does it make you feel like a zombie.

Jennjenn! I SO understand your fear of medications.. And there is also a real stigma w medications too.. I used to feel so defeated and weak .. As though I was giving up..

But the reality is that these illnesses are very real.. Very crippling.. And completely treatable!

Of course I also understand fear of the meds.. But what's important to consider the pros vs cons.. If your quality of life w out medication is severely compromised.. And if you are losing the battle against mental illness on your own.. Then the "risks" involved with taking meds have more pros than cons compared to your current situation.

I couldn't take a day trip.. I cdnt go over bridges.. I couldn't be in desolate places., I couldn't sleep by myself or with the lights off.. Or TV off..I couldn't order food or go into stores comfortably by myself.. I couldn't stop obsessing and worrying to a point of debilitating anxiety complete with heart palpitations.. Dizzy and black outs..

So!!! For me.. Taking a pill.. And dealing with the possibilities of all of the good it could do for me.. Greatly outweighed what bad it could possibly do to me..

I used to say "if this pill killed me tomorrow at least I lived a FULL AND HAPPY today.." I wast living without the pill anyway.. Who could call that living??

And someone said something else interesting to me when I was debating as to whether or not I should take meds.. They said "hell of eat a cinder block if it would make that madness go away.. Think about the foods we eat., the alcohol.. The smoking.. Allll the bad and potential "bad" things we do to our bodies every day.. And this pill concerns you?"

Lol!!

Paxil.. And Zoloft changed my life! I wouldn't have believed it in my wildest dreams :-))) an that's why since I have been off of my meds for about 6 mos and relapsing after a 10 year stretch of awesomeness I am back on Zoloft for the past 2.5 weeks .. Very anxiously awaiting peace!! :-))

[kelliesean]

And I used to worry about being like a zombie.. I can reassure you that you will not..

And in those 10 years that I was well.. I was still me., I still worried a bit.. And I still had to work to be mentally stable.. I avoided triggers etc.. But the medication made it possible..

[M.C]

I too have a husband and 2 kids

And my husband threatens me that if I don't snap out of my health anxiety the social services will give the children for fostering while I ll be placed in a psychiatric ward like loopy Lucy
What would you make of this husband????
Sometimes I feel like strangling and shut him up for good!
Just kidding I m not insane yet:):):)!!!

[kelliesean]

I too have a husband and 2 kids

And my husband threatens me that if I don't snap out of my health anxiety the social services will give the children for fostering while I ll be placed in a psychiatric ward like loopy Lucy
What would you make of this husband????
Sometimes I feel like strangling and shut him up for good!
Just kidding I m not insane yet:):):)!!!

Hahaha! MC!
Hmmm.. Marriages are personal agreements.. I don't completely want to infringe ;)

But that sounds incredibly insensitive.. An it's totally not true.

I know someone who has 4 kids and very bi polar.. I've been there for her ups and downs.. She has been in the hospital etc- NO ONE has taken her kids away from her.

It sounds like your husband is trying to cope with this situation.. And deal with trying to change you the only way he knows how.. But it's not the right way.

Maybe you guys can go to counseling together so that he can better understand what you are going through and how he can cope as well..

[em1]

I am on the same Meds to as I've been fine they are called sertraline in the uk if you wanted to know :)

[JennJenn]

Jennjenn! I SO understand your fear of medications.. And there is also a real stigma w medications too.. I used to feel so defeated and weak .. As though I was giving up..

But the reality is that these illnesses are very real.. Very crippling.. And completely treatable!

Of course I also understand fear of the meds.. But what's important to consider the pros vs cons.. If your quality of life w out medication is severely compromised.. And if you are losing the battle against mental illness on your own.. Then the "risks" involved with taking meds have more pros than cons compared to your current situation.

I couldn't take a day trip.. I cdnt go over bridges.. I couldn't be in desolate places., I couldn't sleep by myself or with the lights off.. Or TV off..I couldn't order food or go into stores comfortably by myself.. I couldn't stop obsessing and worrying to a point of debilitating anxiety complete with heart palpitations.. Dizzy and black outs..

So!!! For me.. Taking a pill.. And dealing with the possibilities of all of the good it could do for me.. Greatly outweighed what bad it could possibly do to me..

I used to say "if this pill killed me tomorrow at least I lived a FULL AND HAPPY today.." I wast living without the pill anyway.. Who could call that living??

And someone said something else interesting to me when I was debating as to whether or not I should take meds.. They said "hell of eat a cinder block if it would make that madness go away.. Think about the foods we eat., the alcohol.. The smoking.. Allll the bad and potential "bad" things we do to our bodies every day.. And this pill concerns you?"

Lol!!

Paxil.. And Zoloft changed my life! I wouldn't have believed it in my wildest dreams :-))) an that's why since I have been off of my meds for about 6 mos and relapsing after a 10 year stretch of awesomeness I am back on Zoloft for the past 2.5 weeks .. Very anxiously awaiting peace!! :-))

I am going to have to do something and soon. My therapist seems to be against meds. I was doing great for 10 years on zoloft alone but then it hit me full throttle. These last 2 months have me wondering if I dont need to try something soon.

[M.C]

Thx kellie... For replying
Marriage stinks especially mine
I strongly think we should take a trip to the courts and end it all there
The bottom line is I m in this mess all by my self
There's int anyone who understands considers understands or cares
Only the people who went through it could say I know how you feel

[JennJenn]

I worry about that too.

[kelliesean]

Thx kellie... For replying
Marriage stinks especially mine
I strongly think we should take a trip to the courts and end it all there
The bottom line is I m in this mess all by my self
There's int anyone who understands considers understands or cares
Only the people who went through it could say I know how you feel

I understand that.. It's tough!!! And yes we do all understand :)

And the stress you are feeling from your marriage could partly be to blame for some anxieties u may be having too..

[juliemc30]

Yeah mc I get the same attitude from mine and trust me I know people with mental health issues who have kids and the kids have never been taken away from them . Sometimes the kids are the only thing to keep us going . Mine drive me crazy but I wouldn't change them for the world ther little cheeky grins brighten up even the gloomiest if days . As for our men it is just them trying to cope cos they do not know what to say so when they do say something it comes out wrong hahaha . It isn't what we want to hear in middle of a really down impossible day . Xxxxx

[M.C]

I should confess I m a victim of domestic violence
I put up with so much crap with this guy and his family too
And for some reason I kept on going
I was stronger than now and I didn't let it break me to pieces
But the trauma I went through when my lung collapsed is totally a different story
And that s how I contracted health anxiety
It just so unbearable and I can't put up with it anymore

[kelliesean]

I should confess I m a victim of domestic violence
I put up with so much crap with this guy and his family too
And for some reason I kept on going
I was stronger than now and I didn't let it break me to pieces
But the trauma I went through when my lung collapsed is totally a different story
And that s how I contracted health anxiety
It just so unbearable and I can't put up with it anymore

How did your lung collapse!!?? :-/

[M.C]

I had tb in 2010 and was completely cured but left with small sists in my right lung
At the time I was advised to not scuba dive
Last year August I went on a Holliday and everything was fine on the way back home one of the sists ruptured in the plane because of the pressure I didn't feel anything
3 days later I had a sharp back pain and I thought it s nothing it will go away but it didn't
I went to A&E I was told it was a chest infection and given amoxicillin for 1 week
That didn't work then my GP gave me an X-ray form to do
I went for that then straight to A&E had a chest drain fitted and at that minute I became anxious all I could think about was dying at any time
I stayed in hospital for 6 days then transferred to a specialised hospital to have a surgery
Went for that with ZERO hope
I had 3 big sists removed and 2 chest drains fitted 11 days later was discharged with 1 chest drain
A week later went back to hospital because i had a very bad wound infection stayed there for 6 days and thought I will not come out alive of that place
I started having panic attacks ( chest pain back pain feeling like passing out heart palpitations and so on)
I didn't know what it was so kept on thinking it was another collapse but it wasn't
Last time I went they told me about health anxiety and how to seek help
10 months on and I still feel ill tired without energy and everything aching
And that's my story

[kelliesean]

Oh wow! Well thats definitely reason to have health anxiety!! Ugghh stresses me out just reading it! Lol

[M.C]

What about you????

[Nara]

Hello! Maybe is hard for you dont have the suport you need to deal with that :(.. I just got married, just 1 year and I can say my husband is the one who understand me more, even more than my family. He reads articles, he sometimes know better than me and when I feel something he says that maybe is because of the medicines and he reads forums etc. He really helps me so much! He give me massage when I am in crises. He is really an angel for me.. But I ask myself until when he will be so understanding like that because I can imagine being in his shoes and I can understand is not easy to see your love suffering, and maybe the way your husband shows that is with impacince. So I advice your husband read more, read books, he has to support you! And another thing! Dont pretend that you are ok! This is worse than ever! When you do that your mind get more stressed. I am reading a book great called AT A LAST LIFE (from uk) and he explain we cant do that! I hope you will get better soon! With faith we go far! Hugs!!!

[M.C]

You are a very lucky lady to have such a husband

I ve been married for 9 years and I think love compassion and patience fade away as the years go pass
To be honest I m not bothered I kind of got used to it every time it happens he apologises and promises he won't do it again and he does
I don't fall for it anymore
At the moment I m more focused on my health
I just want to get better and feel that the anxiety is driving me crazy

[em1]

You are a very lucky lady to have such a husband

I ve been married for 9 years and I think love compassion and patience fade away as the years go pass
To be honest I m not bothered I kind of got used to it every time it happens he apologises and promises he won't do it again and he does
I don't fall for it anymore
At the moment I m more focused on my health
I just want to get better and feel that the anxiety is driving me crazy

No one should live like that,have you not Got somewhere else to go? A friend, Relative,shelter? No one should get used to it, :(

[M.C]

Trust me I am used to it

It s quiet complicated so it does not really matter
Thx for your concern

[kelliesean]

Trust me I am used to it

It s quiet complicated so it does not really matter
Thx for your concern

Hmmm.. This IS complicated..,

[em1]

Hmmm.. This IS complicated..,

Yes but no one should go through that on top of everything else :( we are here if you need us to talk to,sometimes it's good to talk to people who don't know but will understand

[kelliesean]

Yes but no one should go through that on top of everything else :( we are here if you need us to talk to,sometimes it's good to talk to people who don't know but will understand

Absolutely.. It cd be that situation which is triggering anxiety.. It's so tough I'm sure.. Uughhhh stinks!

[M.C]

I do appreciate that

And I agree with you no one should go through such horrible thing
But at the moment it s my health that worries me the most
I wish i could become anxiety free at this instant

[em1]

Oh I know what your saying Anxiety is so hard to deal with sometimes,but I'm happy that we all have here to chat and no one thinks your crazy because you have this fear

[scared44]

Hi Im also a long time sufferer (28yrs) of pa,gad,social phobia,agrophobia and depression! My first attack was at 12yrs old and 28 yrs later Im still fighting this horrible debilitating illness! I know how you all feel. (Hugs) xx

[anxiousashley]

I don't know if this was mentioned yet or not because I didn't read all the posts, but for those with partners who don't understand what we are going through, I highly recommend the book "Loving Someone with Anxiety" by Kate N. Theida. It will give them a better understanding of what we go through and also how they can help us work through it.

[CathHelena]

Yeah, mine does too, but i cant blame him, when you dont have it you think "Pff its just in their heads! they can get rid of it anytime they want" , but we cant, and that's what hard for them to understand, that sometimes its not a choice :(

[anxiousashley]

Yeah, mine does too, but i cant blame him, when you dont have it you think "Pff its just in their heads! they can get rid of it anytime they want" , but we cant, and that's what hard for them to understand, that sometimes its not a choice :(

I agree with you CathHelena! I mean seriously why would anyone think we'd choose to live this way?! But I do know it's hard to understand. It's an illness that can't be seen.

[kelliesean]

I agree with you CathHelena! I mean seriously why would anyone think we'd choose to live this way?! But I do know it's hard to understand. It's an illness that can't be seen.

Yeah.. I have a wonderful and smart friend who is very supportive.. And I am hit w the reality that this is so hard for others to understand when I consider her reaction..

One day we were out together more toward the city.. Out of my comfort zone for the moment.. And then to add to my stress I was stuck in TRAFFIC.. Ugghh I started getting to anxious.. Hands w pins and needles.. Feeling smothered.. I couldn't stand the "trapped" feeling I ha being so out of my familiar element, and being in such tremendous traffic!! Whewwww.. I started sweating just typing that story! Lol

Anyway I told her "wheww.. I am feeling super anxious rt now w all this.." And she knows my history .. I know her 20 years.. So she has a look on her face that reads "I am trying to understand".. N she says "well.. Kellie, traffic stresses me out too.. Traffic is stressful.."

It was just a moment where I tht "she can not possibly wrap her head around this.. She doesn't understand that I am not simply stressed bc of traffic.. Rather I was having a friggin psychotic melt down in my head!! Lol.. Smh..

[anxiousashley]

Yeah.. I have a wonderful and smart friend who is very supportive.. And I am hit w the reality that this is so hard for others to understand when I consider her reaction..

One day we were out together more toward the city.. Out of my comfort zone for the moment.. And then to add to my stress I was stuck in TRAFFIC.. Ugghh I started getting to anxious.. Hands w pins and needles.. Feeling smothered.. I couldn't stand the "trapped" feeling I ha being so out of my familiar element, and being in such tremendous traffic!! Whewwww.. I started sweating just typing that story! Lol

Anyway I told her "wheww.. I am feeling super anxious rt now w all this.." And she knows my history .. I know her 20 years.. So she has a look on her face that reads "I am trying to understand".. N she says "well.. Kellie, traffic stresses me out too.. Traffic is stressful.."

It was just a moment where I tht "she can not possibly wrap her head around this.. She doesn't understand that I am not simply stressed bc of traffic.. Rather I was having a friggin psychotic melt down in my head!! Lol.. Smh..

I get that completely! I have best friend who has been there since this all started for me. She can be very supportive but she just doesn't understand it. I can freak out around her and she's just like "ok quit it!" but still tried to help me calm down. That's really my main reason I joined this forum. You all understand what I am going through. While I get support from this friend it's just really comforting to know someone really gets it!

[kelliesean]

I get that completely! I have best friend who has been there since this all started for me. She can be very supportive but she just doesn't understand it. I can freak out around her and she's just like "ok quit it!" but still tried to help me calm down. That's really my main reason I joined this forum. You all understand what I am going through. While I get support from this friend it's just really comforting to know someone really gets it!

Exactly :)

[CathHelena]

Yeah, i agree with all of you :-)

But i think it's sooo wierd, because i used to be on their side of things, my sister had/has anxienty too, and had it long before me, and i really really couldnt understand and wrap my head around the fact that it wasn't her fault she felt those things, and got those attacks, and i used to kinda see it as an teenage "see me- look at me" thing.

And now i feel so bad when i now have it myself, but thankfully we are now a great support for each other, because we REALLY do understand what is going on, and have been in the same position.

Thats why i love this forum, i get to meet all of you, share my store, and hear about yours, i has really helped me a lot :-) And i'll do whatever to help you too!

It's important to have people who understand.