michelle17
08-24-2007, 01:35 PM
I think I have social phobia. I'm 17 and it's been going on ever since I was 13 I would say. At first it wasn't so bad, and I've always been a shy kid out in public..at home I was perfectly fine though, and now too. But it's been gradually getting worse. I get such nervousness when I'm in the simplest situations like saying "here" for class or something...and today we had to do introduction in class and as usual, my heart was racing 100 miles per minute before anyone's name was even called. It took so much effort not to act nervous...but yet my voice still trembled...not so much as usual cause I was trying so hard not to be nervous but it was still there. When I have to do presentations in class, I usually skip or simply not do it. I feel like such a prisoner to myself, and I know I could do SO much better in school if I wasn't so nervous all the time. I'm not nervous in front of my friends, just mainly people who intimidate me...which is a lot of people. The thing is, I know I need help but it's so embarassing...like painfully embarassing. I tried telling my mom once that I had a real problem and told her I shake and tremble so much in presentations but she said that's normal, and I was over-reacting. I dont want to go to a doctor anyways though...it was hard enough trying to tell my mom the tiniest bit of my problem. I just want some over the counter medication or something that could work for me. As I'm writing this tears are coming to my eyes, and I know that sounds pathetic but I feel like such a loser..I feel so different, and I can't help it. I'm a smart, pretty girl and this is holding me back so much. I wanna live life, go on dates, breeze through presentations, order dinner without feeling that little bit of nervousness.
Again, I don't want to go to a psychologist or doctor...I reeeally dont..It's way too hard, I'd feel so stupid and I'd probably end up crying. I just want some medication I can easily obtain, or tips to overcome this problem. Thanks for listening.
Again, I don't want to go to a psychologist or doctor...I reeeally dont..It's way too hard, I'd feel so stupid and I'd probably end up crying. I just want some medication I can easily obtain, or tips to overcome this problem. Thanks for listening.