Hello all i am new here and this is my story

[emmet2007]

I am 29 year old male i have had problems now for, well as long as i can remember really. I have been on a few different types of medication i cant remember there names now the last meds taken were cipralex. I stopped taking them a few weeks ago, because i am going to ask my doctor for different meds this week as the cipralex dose not work for me. I have a feeling of worry all the time and i am also very paranoid alot of the time. I very rarely go out any more because of the way it makes me feel. I believe i partly have myself to blame for my anxiety, I used to take drugs and i am a recovering alcoholic so due to my past lifestyle i dont think i have done myself any favours. But that was then and this is now, I am four years clean and sober in 4 days time :) , I am having a bit of a bad day today so i thought i would do some looking on the net to see what i could find. I found this forum so i hope it helps me and i hope maybe i have somthing to offer others on here also. I am not sure if anxiety is my only problem i have intursive thoughs and i think i am bit ocd also. I wont let people other than my fiance make me tea at the fear of someone putting somthing in it. When people pass my house in cars i think they are driving slow to look into my house to see if i am home (not sure why but i do). The reason they drive slow is because i live on a bend so they have to slow down. I know this but cant help being paranoid. I am always worried and always scared OF WHAT? i am not sure . I am very scared of possible violence and i always think my house is being burgled. I am always worried about my eyesite i am not sure if anyone else here has problems with there eyes , but my eyesight is more enhanced (acute) thats the only way i can describe it . The doctor says this is a symptom of anxiety, it drives me carzy things dont look real if that makes any sence and ofen worry that maybe it's a brain tumor probably just being paranoid again but it really worries me. There are a few other things it could be that i am going to get checked out.
Anyway sorry to rattle on, i just wanted to introduce myself and say hello to everyone. Feedback comments are more than welcome.

Take care all KEEP THE FAITH! emmet2007

[imported_admin]

Hi Emmet, thanks for sharing your story. I beleive it is common for someone who is suffering anxiety to think excessively about different scenarios and outcomes. I find always find myself thinking worse case scenarios about stupid things like whether the balcony I am standing on will collapse, or if the cables in the elevator will snap. I beleive this is all just a by-product of anxiety.