Does this happen to you?

[cyncyn]

I've been managing my anxiety ok at my new job but after a few days off I find it hard to go back to work. I feel all anxious like I want to jump out of my skin and start having anxious negative thoughts what if-ing myself sick. My boss knows I have anxiety due to the nature of the business I had to disclose any medication I am on but I don't want my coworkers to know. I guess my big fear this morning is having a massive panic attack at work and being made fun of behind my back or worse losing my job. This hasn't happened yet and I'm trying to tell myself this rationally but I feel like just staying home & crying, which isn't an option either. I usually feel better once I'm there for a while but this anticipatory anxiety is a bitch.

[vonnhelsing]

yeah i know how you feel. . .
getting through work is a huge struggle for me. no one understands me. they think im lazy because im always exhausted from anxiety and have to constantly sit down and rest and most think im completely crazy because im always frantically pacing around trying to calm myself. so now, i sit on my desk and hold it all in and have to pretend nothing's wrong. it's horrible. i hate it. anticipatory anxiety is a huuuuge bitch. its that whole period before doing something that causes the anxiety. over thinking way too much beforehands and then realizing everythings fine once you're there and there was nothing to worry about in the first place.