mglover92
05-15-2013, 09:29 PM
I am going to make a long story short. I have been with my girlfriend for 5 years. I am 21 years old so we met each other when we were both 16. Well throughout these 5 years there would always be a time when my girlfriend is constantly put down. Her mom is verbally abusive towards her. Always has been and always finds ways to make her feel like shit. So these past 2 days I have noticed that my girlfriend was not being herself. She was not eating, she could not sleep, and she would not talk to me. She was very short and very quiet and this was not like her at all. It took about 10 minutes but I finally got her to open up and she started balling out in tears crying like there was no tomorrow.. She kept saying nobody likes her, everyone she is friends with leaves her, that her mom hates her (wouldn't surprise me), and she constantly kept feeling guilty all the time and blaming her self for things. Now I finally managed to calm her down after about an hour. Seeing her like upset me so much. I cried while holding her in my arms telling her everything was going to be okay and that I love her more than anything. She means the world to me. She tells me that she has been googling symptoms for depression. This really shocked me. Usually she tells me these things but she told me she had not recently because she does not want me to worry (i have OCD, it sucks) Anyways...I finally managed to calm her down, I got her to smile and be happy and later that night is where all hell broke loose and where we are today...
That night, I left her house and she was happy. I pretty much had fixed everything that was wrong and made her happy. Well soon as I get home i get a call from her and she was IN TEARS. ALL I DID ALL NIGHT COMFORTING HER MAKING HER LAUGH AND SMILE WENT OUT THE WINDOW. She was panicking and having a panic attack crying to me about mean comments her mother said towards her. Folks please keep in mind she has put up with this for years and enough is enough.
the comments were as follows
1. You are a disgrace to the family, you havent graduated from college yet
2. You are disgracing the family and everyone says bad things about you behind your back
3. You have no friends
4. You are an embarrassment.
folks that was my fucking breaking point. When she told me that I punched and left a dent in my steel closet door. I constantly over and over and over again just punched my closet door out of frustration and anger because I hate bully's. I pretended the door was her face and just wham and beat the shit out of it and screamed. I hate how everything I did went out the window! I CANT JUST STAND HERE AND LET MY GF BE MENTALLY ABUSED. WE ALL KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO BE TORMENTED, CALLED NAMES! how could a mother say that to her own daughter? Her own flesh and blood? what if those were the last words you ever said to your daughter and she was dead the next minute? She is the reason why my GF is coming down with depression. She is the reason why she has anxiety, the words are constantly driving her self esteem down and it is effecting me also. I am the only one who is there for her. The constant negative comments are finally taking its toll on her.
Now I know i shouldn't of punched my door, but all throughout the day this did nothing but pissed me off and i needed to let it out. All in my head throughout the day was violent thoughts of literally murdering this woman. I am not a insane person and I dont think about violence ever but she triggered it and set me off. I finally managed to calm down a little bit as a i write this but the more I think about it the more its setting me off. A disease that I have been struggling with for 2 years is about to come down on my love and its all because her mother cant keep her mouth shut. If she could just say nice things to her and help her and lift her up this problem wouldnt even fucking exist.
So i texted her and let her have a piece of my mind. I dont need to go in to detail of that. but when my GF got home her mom was in tears, crying about the things I said (Like I give a shit, how does it feel now bitch?) And she finally apologized to my GF for what she said. (she has never apologized for anything before) And she finally did. so mission fucking complete. but now shes still upset about what I said...and to be honest I really do not care. She deserved every bit of it.
Honestly what do you guys think of this? I NEVER NEVER NEVER went into a rage like I did today. I have never ever had crazy violent thoughts like I did today of murdering this woman. I think I have only done this sort of rage thing once in my life. So all together it has happened twice in my life. Am I crazy? how would you of reacted to this? I just cant stand it anymore. We have both put up with it for so long and now she finally knows how it feels. One of the comments I made towards her was that she belongs in a asylum because shes fucking insane for saying those things. That is what made her cry. And honestly I feel pretty proud because Karma is a bitch and it came around and know she knows how it feels to be made fun of.
So am I crazy? Because now my OCD literally thinks I am.....I couldnt step foot near her house anymore because my heart would beat fast and I would get crazy panic..
also picture of me and my GF for those who are curious
http://i39.tinypic.com/300tyf7.jpg
That night, I left her house and she was happy. I pretty much had fixed everything that was wrong and made her happy. Well soon as I get home i get a call from her and she was IN TEARS. ALL I DID ALL NIGHT COMFORTING HER MAKING HER LAUGH AND SMILE WENT OUT THE WINDOW. She was panicking and having a panic attack crying to me about mean comments her mother said towards her. Folks please keep in mind she has put up with this for years and enough is enough.
the comments were as follows
1. You are a disgrace to the family, you havent graduated from college yet
2. You are disgracing the family and everyone says bad things about you behind your back
3. You have no friends
4. You are an embarrassment.
folks that was my fucking breaking point. When she told me that I punched and left a dent in my steel closet door. I constantly over and over and over again just punched my closet door out of frustration and anger because I hate bully's. I pretended the door was her face and just wham and beat the shit out of it and screamed. I hate how everything I did went out the window! I CANT JUST STAND HERE AND LET MY GF BE MENTALLY ABUSED. WE ALL KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO BE TORMENTED, CALLED NAMES! how could a mother say that to her own daughter? Her own flesh and blood? what if those were the last words you ever said to your daughter and she was dead the next minute? She is the reason why my GF is coming down with depression. She is the reason why she has anxiety, the words are constantly driving her self esteem down and it is effecting me also. I am the only one who is there for her. The constant negative comments are finally taking its toll on her.
Now I know i shouldn't of punched my door, but all throughout the day this did nothing but pissed me off and i needed to let it out. All in my head throughout the day was violent thoughts of literally murdering this woman. I am not a insane person and I dont think about violence ever but she triggered it and set me off. I finally managed to calm down a little bit as a i write this but the more I think about it the more its setting me off. A disease that I have been struggling with for 2 years is about to come down on my love and its all because her mother cant keep her mouth shut. If she could just say nice things to her and help her and lift her up this problem wouldnt even fucking exist.
So i texted her and let her have a piece of my mind. I dont need to go in to detail of that. but when my GF got home her mom was in tears, crying about the things I said (Like I give a shit, how does it feel now bitch?) And she finally apologized to my GF for what she said. (she has never apologized for anything before) And she finally did. so mission fucking complete. but now shes still upset about what I said...and to be honest I really do not care. She deserved every bit of it.
Honestly what do you guys think of this? I NEVER NEVER NEVER went into a rage like I did today. I have never ever had crazy violent thoughts like I did today of murdering this woman. I think I have only done this sort of rage thing once in my life. So all together it has happened twice in my life. Am I crazy? how would you of reacted to this? I just cant stand it anymore. We have both put up with it for so long and now she finally knows how it feels. One of the comments I made towards her was that she belongs in a asylum because shes fucking insane for saying those things. That is what made her cry. And honestly I feel pretty proud because Karma is a bitch and it came around and know she knows how it feels to be made fun of.
So am I crazy? Because now my OCD literally thinks I am.....I couldnt step foot near her house anymore because my heart would beat fast and I would get crazy panic..
also picture of me and my GF for those who are curious
http://i39.tinypic.com/300tyf7.jpg