Mrsbadcrumble
05-15-2013, 09:44 AM
Hi
I'm a new member here and just needed some space to get this out.
I'm 36 and live in the UK. I've suffered from periods of Anxiety and Depression since I was about 16. I'm currently signed off work with a particularly bad episode of anxiety, I have agreed that I be signed back to work at the end of the month as I do feel I need to get back to some sort of normality, but I'm just so fed up of being so scared. I don't answer the phone unless it's someone I don't want to talk to...likewise the door. The smallest thing still makes me scared but I've got so used to hiding it over the years that I feel that no one can see how bad things are, and don't really believe that there's anything wrong with me
I know I need to learn to cope, and not just that, but to begin to look forward to my life. I have a good life (generally) with an amazing family, a loving husband. When I'm rational, I know all this. I even know it when I'm being irrational but it doesn't make a bit of difference. How do I go about stopping the feeling that every time I take another step my whole world is going to collapse round my ears?
I know this is a ramble and I apologise for making little sense, but I really need to get some perspective, or at least get my thoughts in order!
xx
I'm a new member here and just needed some space to get this out.
I'm 36 and live in the UK. I've suffered from periods of Anxiety and Depression since I was about 16. I'm currently signed off work with a particularly bad episode of anxiety, I have agreed that I be signed back to work at the end of the month as I do feel I need to get back to some sort of normality, but I'm just so fed up of being so scared. I don't answer the phone unless it's someone I don't want to talk to...likewise the door. The smallest thing still makes me scared but I've got so used to hiding it over the years that I feel that no one can see how bad things are, and don't really believe that there's anything wrong with me
I know I need to learn to cope, and not just that, but to begin to look forward to my life. I have a good life (generally) with an amazing family, a loving husband. When I'm rational, I know all this. I even know it when I'm being irrational but it doesn't make a bit of difference. How do I go about stopping the feeling that every time I take another step my whole world is going to collapse round my ears?
I know this is a ramble and I apologise for making little sense, but I really need to get some perspective, or at least get my thoughts in order!
xx