new to anxiety
05-13-2013, 12:50 AM
I'm new to the forum, and new to anxiety in general. I've been a victim/sufferer/member/slave/???? for about 3 months now. I have found that google can be your best friend and worst enemy when you're trying to learn more about this condition. Perhaps it's because i'm new to it that I can't fathom going through this for years. I have had a few 2 or 3 day stretches where I feel really good and I start to think, "finally, i'm me again, whatever was wrong with my brain or nervous system has worked itself out", then BAM!! Back to the anxiety again, for no reason. Thats what baffles me. No obvious trigger or stressor, just that overall nervous feeling which leads to not feeling right which leads to thinking thats something is physically wrong and then just snowballs from there. Some days I think i'm just anxious about being anxious, and I wake up anxious about whether i'm gonna be anxious that day. I'm on Citalopram, don't know if its doing anything, taking Magnesium, multivitamin, cut way back on coffee, everything I can read about from seasoned sufferers. This is not living!! I feel like I did all the times I tried to quit smoking and failed. After the first couple cigs you just feel down about failing to beat it once again. I did finally quit, so maybe theres hope for this too.