hedgiemommy
05-11-2013, 07:23 AM
I just started the process of finding the right medicine 2 months ago. This week I've been trying my third new one.
The first one made me physically ill to the point where I was having chest pain.
The second one made me want to kill myself that I was close to doing it until my boyfriend walked in on me holding a knife in the kitchen. I've never felt more possessed by depression...
Now I'm on my third and the first 48 hours or so were great! I've never felt better in my life! I thought I was on the right path.
But last night and this morning, all I want to do is die... I know I'll never go through with it but living through this process is excruciating and exhausting.
How did everyone find the courage to keep trying different meds when the "trial and error" process is so tough???
I would love some words of encouragement.
The first one made me physically ill to the point where I was having chest pain.
The second one made me want to kill myself that I was close to doing it until my boyfriend walked in on me holding a knife in the kitchen. I've never felt more possessed by depression...
Now I'm on my third and the first 48 hours or so were great! I've never felt better in my life! I thought I was on the right path.
But last night and this morning, all I want to do is die... I know I'll never go through with it but living through this process is excruciating and exhausting.
How did everyone find the courage to keep trying different meds when the "trial and error" process is so tough???
I would love some words of encouragement.