gumbysack
04-28-2013, 03:26 PM
Now I've always had trouble with self-image. I'm incredibly shy and experience a lot of anxiety when talking to even my friends at school.
Up until I was about 15, even though I was still incredibly shy I was sure that I was smarter and better-looking than everyone around me. I'm completely paranoid about most things, even if I don't believe my delusions they are still thought processes that go through and get anxious over. As soon as my friends are away from me I assume they are talking about how awful of a person I am.
I have trouble listening to music, it makes me really frustrated because I feel like I can't determine what I like and what I don't like and just base it purely on what people around me would think. I regret almost every social situation I'm put in even if at the time I feel like I'm coming across well.
I spend the majority of my free time playing over scenarios in my mind in which I am a much better person to what I am now. I also have problems with empathy and generally don't understand implied conversation.
Up until I was about 15, even though I was still incredibly shy I was sure that I was smarter and better-looking than everyone around me. I'm completely paranoid about most things, even if I don't believe my delusions they are still thought processes that go through and get anxious over. As soon as my friends are away from me I assume they are talking about how awful of a person I am.
I have trouble listening to music, it makes me really frustrated because I feel like I can't determine what I like and what I don't like and just base it purely on what people around me would think. I regret almost every social situation I'm put in even if at the time I feel like I'm coming across well.
I spend the majority of my free time playing over scenarios in my mind in which I am a much better person to what I am now. I also have problems with empathy and generally don't understand implied conversation.