Kel
07-27-2007, 08:34 AM
Hi everyone,
I have had anxiety / depression on & off for for the past 6/7 years.
I think the anxiety came on very slowly over the years but then became out of control whilst I was on holiday in 2001.
I have been on various medication for 6 years. I have had CBT (on the NHS), EFT, Reflexology, Reiki & other private counselling but still these feelings come back.
In the past year alone I had 6 "episodes" that always seem to me to come out of nowhere.
A few of these "episodes" have happened when I was on holiday - completely illogical & it ended up ruining most of the holiday. Maybe it was the fear of fear that brought this on.
The 6th & most recent "episode" started on Sunday. I have been feeling extremely anxious and have the usual physical symptoms – feeling & being sick, upset stomach, heart racing, tingly arms, feeling weak and shakey, disturbed sleep & low appetite. As to what has triggered this "episode" it could be a number of things. We were looking into booking a holiday for September & there are also major redundancies about to be announced at work.
The usual pattern it follows is that the anxiety kicks in first & then the feeling low & overwhelmed starts. I know that the feelings are anxiety but I just cannot talk myself round. I understand why I get the physical feelings but just don't know why I have the anxiety in the first place. I'm not always necessarily worrying about anything consciously. The feelings just seem to come from nowhere. When it first strikes it is overwhelming and nothing that I do helps.
I wake up ridiculously early feeling so anxious, I have no appetite & everything I do is a struggle. I don't enjoy things & I just have this overwhelming feeling of hopelessness. I just wish I could be like everyone else & just feel content & happy.
I was in the process of withdrawing my medication (venlafaxine) due to having high blood pressure. However I am unsure as to how effective my medication is as I would have "episodes" even when on it. I have been having NHS counselling sessions – once a fortnight for about 30 minutes which is basically just working through booklets.
I am now seeking the help of a private counsellor.
I worry that this is how I will be on & off for the rest of my life. I don't know how I will cope with children and the stresses in life that are sure to come my way. Up until now apart from my parents splitting up I have not had to deal with anything particularly stressful.
I am lucky in that I have a very supportive boyfriend & friends / family but I just hate feeling like this. I keep telling myself that as it has before it will pass but while it is here it is so hard.
I have never found anything that helps me. How have other people recovered
Sorry to go on so long. Thanks for listening x
I have had anxiety / depression on & off for for the past 6/7 years.
I think the anxiety came on very slowly over the years but then became out of control whilst I was on holiday in 2001.
I have been on various medication for 6 years. I have had CBT (on the NHS), EFT, Reflexology, Reiki & other private counselling but still these feelings come back.
In the past year alone I had 6 "episodes" that always seem to me to come out of nowhere.
A few of these "episodes" have happened when I was on holiday - completely illogical & it ended up ruining most of the holiday. Maybe it was the fear of fear that brought this on.
The 6th & most recent "episode" started on Sunday. I have been feeling extremely anxious and have the usual physical symptoms – feeling & being sick, upset stomach, heart racing, tingly arms, feeling weak and shakey, disturbed sleep & low appetite. As to what has triggered this "episode" it could be a number of things. We were looking into booking a holiday for September & there are also major redundancies about to be announced at work.
The usual pattern it follows is that the anxiety kicks in first & then the feeling low & overwhelmed starts. I know that the feelings are anxiety but I just cannot talk myself round. I understand why I get the physical feelings but just don't know why I have the anxiety in the first place. I'm not always necessarily worrying about anything consciously. The feelings just seem to come from nowhere. When it first strikes it is overwhelming and nothing that I do helps.
I wake up ridiculously early feeling so anxious, I have no appetite & everything I do is a struggle. I don't enjoy things & I just have this overwhelming feeling of hopelessness. I just wish I could be like everyone else & just feel content & happy.
I was in the process of withdrawing my medication (venlafaxine) due to having high blood pressure. However I am unsure as to how effective my medication is as I would have "episodes" even when on it. I have been having NHS counselling sessions – once a fortnight for about 30 minutes which is basically just working through booklets.
I am now seeking the help of a private counsellor.
I worry that this is how I will be on & off for the rest of my life. I don't know how I will cope with children and the stresses in life that are sure to come my way. Up until now apart from my parents splitting up I have not had to deal with anything particularly stressful.
I am lucky in that I have a very supportive boyfriend & friends / family but I just hate feeling like this. I keep telling myself that as it has before it will pass but while it is here it is so hard.
I have never found anything that helps me. How have other people recovered
Sorry to go on so long. Thanks for listening x