JaimieThom
07-23-2007, 06:40 PM
Hi, I'm 21 years old and my name is Jaimie. I've had anxiety for about 6 months now. It's seems like everyday I'm constantly thinking about things that could possibly happen to me, such as, nuclear war, the massive earthquake that's supposed to hit the Seattle area anytime now, being killed silently by a sniper, and more. It just terrifies me to know that my life could be ended at anytime without being aware of it.
My biggest fear is probably the fear of dying in my sleep. I hate going to sleep, because there's always that possibility that I may not wake up, because my house may catch fire, an airplane could hit my house, basically anything could happen. My Mom always says that if I die in my sleep, then I won't realize, but that's exactly what I'm afraid of--dying without be aware of it. I guess that I would rather die a slow death, so that I could at least say goodbye to the people that I love.
I hate living life with the constant fear of death. I know that I should live life free without worry, but it's hard not to think about these things.
I wish I believed in God, so that I wouldn't have to worry so much, because if I die, then I'll go on to an afterlife.
Instead, I believe that when I die, I die that's it. I used to believe in God, but around 16 I stopped believing. I try to believe, but just can't.
My psychiatrist diagnosed me with GAD and prescribed me Celexa, but I stopped taking it, because it made me constantly drowsy and it had other unpleasant side effects. I think that taking another SSRI would have the same effect/feeling.
Anyways, sorry for the long post, but I needed to vent some of my frustrations. I guess I really came on here for my fear of sleep. Any help or suggestions?
My biggest fear is probably the fear of dying in my sleep. I hate going to sleep, because there's always that possibility that I may not wake up, because my house may catch fire, an airplane could hit my house, basically anything could happen. My Mom always says that if I die in my sleep, then I won't realize, but that's exactly what I'm afraid of--dying without be aware of it. I guess that I would rather die a slow death, so that I could at least say goodbye to the people that I love.
I hate living life with the constant fear of death. I know that I should live life free without worry, but it's hard not to think about these things.
I wish I believed in God, so that I wouldn't have to worry so much, because if I die, then I'll go on to an afterlife.
Instead, I believe that when I die, I die that's it. I used to believe in God, but around 16 I stopped believing. I try to believe, but just can't.
My psychiatrist diagnosed me with GAD and prescribed me Celexa, but I stopped taking it, because it made me constantly drowsy and it had other unpleasant side effects. I think that taking another SSRI would have the same effect/feeling.
Anyways, sorry for the long post, but I needed to vent some of my frustrations. I guess I really came on here for my fear of sleep. Any help or suggestions?