Such a Stupid Cycle, Isn't it?

[stellab]

Hey friends...I'm new here and I've never really tried a mental health forum, so decided I'd reach out and see if I could just find some...understanding? I guess? I'm not really sure what I'm after right now...
But my situation is frustrating...I've been through counseling on and off over the years, I'm not going now and I'm becoming absolutely overwhelmed by life. What's ridiculous is...I feel like I legitimately have nothing to be depressed/anxious about, yet I haven't been able to just sleep through the night for weeks, I walk around with a constant, nagging nervous feeling in my stomach and I feel like crying if someone even looks at me the wrong way. I feel like I'm always waiting for something to happen, or like I'm forgetting something. I get panicky over nothing, my mind moves at 100mph and I can barely keep track of the wild thoughts racing around in my head. My life, in general, is amazing...I have an incredible husband, a great job, wonderful family and friends...but despite it all, I feel like not only an ungrateful a-hole for feeling so hopeless but I just can't shake the feeling that life is just dismal. I worry about everything. From finances, to household chores, to getting old, to dying, to losing people I love, to not achieving goals, to not feeling like I've gotten to where I want to be professionally...I fixate on these things and when they pile up, I start to get scared. It's been about a year since I've had a panic attack, but I feel like I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown...and again...it's like I have no reason to feel that way!! It's so frustrating...does anybody out there relate? How do you deal with life when it all just feels like it's too much to handle?

[Lin]

My depression is caused by hormones, and my anxiety is a sideline from tablets etc. But I have a friend who had no reason for depression and friends were nasty to her because her life was so good but she had depression. Luckily she managed to ignore those so called friends and went to her doctor who gave her anti depressants. She has to take them still bit accepts they give her a lift her body needs, irrespective of how good her life is. Perhaps yo should talk to your doctor before you get too low. I have been in hospital and it is best if you can get something to make you feel better before it gets that bad.

[abartlett331]

I also have experienced the same things you do. I've at times even felt like just curling up into a little ball in some small corner of my house. I try my best to manage my anxiety by staying busy. I go out for long hikes, runs, or bike rides. I also engage in swimming, meditation, and yoga. I discovered that by keeping my mind occupied on stress free activities, I would have less time to feel anxious, scared, or nervous. Whenever I start feeling any type of anxiety, I leave the house and go for a long walk or run, while listening to calming music. If it's a nice day, I'll go for a swim and sit by the pool with a glass of wine. This helps me a lot...

[Lin]

I used to go out of the house but since May have had bad knees so been unable to walk out or exercise. Now had operation on both knees so hoping once they are fit will be able to exercise and leave house again. Although sometimes I was unkind to my husband and would leave without telling him, or where going, or even some times not even take my mobile,

[Lin]

Knees are getting better so pushing myself to walk further and also doing Buddha meditation group each week. All helping a bit towards getting better.