HeatherD3584
03-22-2013, 12:06 AM
I've posted on here before, and it helped a little...but I stopped because I thought I was doing ok. Thought is the key word I guess.
I started "googling" again because my body, health hypochondria has been acting up after a period of calming down. It's frustrating because it seems as if my focus transfers from one body part to another. I just want to live my life, not spend it worried about "the end." It's making me angry. I feel as if I've wasted enough years doing this to myself. But my therapist says not to think of it that way.
My tailbone and lower back have been burning and hurting for the past few days. Also my ass hurts. TMI?
My stomach hurts off and on as well. Last week I was focused on my heartburn, so who knows...
It's bothering me, because I'd be able to just deal with the uncomfortable feeling if I wasn't so obsessed with what the underlying cause could be.
WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO HAVE AN UNDERLYING CAUSE??!!
But I'm afraid to attribute it to anxiety (which by now I know to be true) because what if? What if all my years of my body crying wolf causes me miss when the wolf is staring me in the face that one time I chose to ignore it.
I left my downward spiral off at googling colon cancer. So this is my new fear. Great.
I cannot, cannot live this way anymore.
Stupid tailbone.
I know eating healthier and working out will help this but I wish I had the overnight answer.
Sorry for the long ramble- but writing this out keeps me from going down an Internet black hole of diagnosing.
-Heather
I started "googling" again because my body, health hypochondria has been acting up after a period of calming down. It's frustrating because it seems as if my focus transfers from one body part to another. I just want to live my life, not spend it worried about "the end." It's making me angry. I feel as if I've wasted enough years doing this to myself. But my therapist says not to think of it that way.
My tailbone and lower back have been burning and hurting for the past few days. Also my ass hurts. TMI?
My stomach hurts off and on as well. Last week I was focused on my heartburn, so who knows...
It's bothering me, because I'd be able to just deal with the uncomfortable feeling if I wasn't so obsessed with what the underlying cause could be.
WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO HAVE AN UNDERLYING CAUSE??!!
But I'm afraid to attribute it to anxiety (which by now I know to be true) because what if? What if all my years of my body crying wolf causes me miss when the wolf is staring me in the face that one time I chose to ignore it.
I left my downward spiral off at googling colon cancer. So this is my new fear. Great.
I cannot, cannot live this way anymore.
Stupid tailbone.
I know eating healthier and working out will help this but I wish I had the overnight answer.
Sorry for the long ramble- but writing this out keeps me from going down an Internet black hole of diagnosing.
-Heather