GroupHug
03-19-2013, 10:31 PM
...until I relapsed.
I'll try and be a bit brief for your sake and my own (I'm in the midst of that relapse right now...in this mind-state it takes me forever to type something) -
I've always been kind of a nervous person, even as a kid. It wasn't until 7th grade though that it became extreme enough to interfere majorly with my life, and it brought with it intense and seemingly unending depressions.
I'm 22 now. It's been about 10 years of misdiagnoses (bipolar for instance), hospital stays, ineffective therapy, and dangerous side effects from unnecessary and equally ineffective medications. 10 years of almost total social isolation, total dysfunctionality, suicidal depressions, and agoraphobic tendencies.
Finally, I began seeing this great cognitive behavioral therapist. More progress was made in a few months than in all the years before COMBINED. After about 5 months, I finally felt like myself for what seemed like the first time. Anxiety - gone. Depression - non-existent. I felt amazing and capable.
I could finally think clearly and fast, make decisions, have confidence and self-esteem, go and do anything I felt like, talk to people, have fun, not worry! I dropped out of high-school because of my issues, and now I felt like I was on the track to some kind of exciting and interesting future, or at least a future that didn't involve wasting away in a small apartment room for the rest of my life!
That lasted for maybe a month or so until I just started to sink into old habits. I had a panic attack about two weeks ago. Got down on myself a bit. Felt intense dissociation from the anxiety again. Been isolating myself again...when I try to reach out I can't communicate well, so I usually don't at all. My brain is now tired and slow, and I often am in general. Haven't really left the house much or felt motivated much to do so, and when I do I get very nervous around people and extremely self-conscious - just like before.
I don't feel like "myself", and that's very disconcerting to live with everyday, now that I know what life can really be.
I guess I made this thread because I just wanted to get some feedback from people who've gone through and tried what I have.
I want to know if any of you think that this CBT can bring about lasting change for me and my anxiety? How have you done in your own experience with CBT?
I'll try and be a bit brief for your sake and my own (I'm in the midst of that relapse right now...in this mind-state it takes me forever to type something) -
I've always been kind of a nervous person, even as a kid. It wasn't until 7th grade though that it became extreme enough to interfere majorly with my life, and it brought with it intense and seemingly unending depressions.
I'm 22 now. It's been about 10 years of misdiagnoses (bipolar for instance), hospital stays, ineffective therapy, and dangerous side effects from unnecessary and equally ineffective medications. 10 years of almost total social isolation, total dysfunctionality, suicidal depressions, and agoraphobic tendencies.
Finally, I began seeing this great cognitive behavioral therapist. More progress was made in a few months than in all the years before COMBINED. After about 5 months, I finally felt like myself for what seemed like the first time. Anxiety - gone. Depression - non-existent. I felt amazing and capable.
I could finally think clearly and fast, make decisions, have confidence and self-esteem, go and do anything I felt like, talk to people, have fun, not worry! I dropped out of high-school because of my issues, and now I felt like I was on the track to some kind of exciting and interesting future, or at least a future that didn't involve wasting away in a small apartment room for the rest of my life!
That lasted for maybe a month or so until I just started to sink into old habits. I had a panic attack about two weeks ago. Got down on myself a bit. Felt intense dissociation from the anxiety again. Been isolating myself again...when I try to reach out I can't communicate well, so I usually don't at all. My brain is now tired and slow, and I often am in general. Haven't really left the house much or felt motivated much to do so, and when I do I get very nervous around people and extremely self-conscious - just like before.
I don't feel like "myself", and that's very disconcerting to live with everyday, now that I know what life can really be.
I guess I made this thread because I just wanted to get some feedback from people who've gone through and tried what I have.
I want to know if any of you think that this CBT can bring about lasting change for me and my anxiety? How have you done in your own experience with CBT?