i just want to be normal!

[msduty2013]

Anyone else find yourself staring at people in places that are drinking a few beers with their friends or your loved ones that get a headache and take a few tylenol like its nothing? I feel so helpless all the time I am terrified of anything that might affect me wrong. I just want to be normal as possible!!!

[Lorenz86]

Just remember that you are not alone... The more you give in to your fears the more they will consume you. Hang in there, I feel your pain.

[msduty2013]

I just hate that whenever I take any meds I panic from the moment I swallow it until about an hour passes and I realize I am not dead. Then I analyze for side effects for the rest of the day. I took a half of a half of a .5 ativan and panicked so much I almost went to the hospital. Its a horrible way to live!

[Lorenz86]

I am not on medication now but I am seriously considering being on some. I actually woke up today with a horrible feeling that today was the day my heart was going to stop or that i would have a heart attack, i couldn't shake the feeling until right now. I feel a lil better and like you i was considering taking a trip to the ER. But we just have to tell ourselves that everything is ok, we've felt this way before and it'll pass. If something horrible was going to happen it would have happened by now. But here we are alive and still breathing=)

[abartlett331]

Have you considered yoga, exercise, swimming, or meditation into your daily schedule. Some people are just naturally more sensitive to meds than others. If you find that you simply can't control your anxiety when taking medications, then perhaps you should try a different alternative. I myself am very vulnerable to meds, which is why I try to live an overall healthy lifestyle by exercising, meditating, and doing yoga. This helps me tremendously. Not only does it help me relax, but it also lets me sleep better too. You should give this a shot and see how it works for you.

[msduty2013]

No I havent considered it but I will try anything! My biggest fear is that I will get really sick like for example breast cancer risk is high in my family and I wont be able to handle treatment because I cant even take a tylenol!

[Farrol]

I'm taking klonipin .5 mg twice a day. Without it I couldn't get thru the day.

[msduty2013]

I used to be on klonopin. I used to be able to take anything. Its like a switch just got flipped and all of a sudden I cant

[escarchazul]

I just started to take lexapro two days ago. I have a big fear on taking medication over all. So of coarse my anxiety tries to take over making me think the medication is going to hurt me. I just want to get past this first two wks and to know that I will be ok...:(

[Brittany1995]

I've started taking it two days ago, too!! So far nothing crazy. I haven't noticed anything. Lol!

[msduty2013]

I woke up last night and couldnt come out of my dream which triggered a MAJOR attack! Of course all I could do was stare at my ativan wishing I could know it wouldnt make it worse! I finally went back to sleep without it. Sigh! :(

[suz245]

Ive been crying for 14 months now coz i want my life back... After taking clomipramine for 22 years i had to stop them as they were making my heart race too fast... Im a shadow of the woman i was ive lost half my body weight.. Developed OCD health anxiety... Ive been on 5 different meds none of which helped me get back to normal... Side effects and other things made my anxiety worse... Im now a week on fluoxetine and im bedridden i can barely walk or stand... Have terrible nausea and diahrroea cant eat.. For a year now ive constantly had songs stuck in my head which nearly drove me to suicide.. Im getting CBT but its not helping me really only makes me understand my anxiety more... In all my life since i was 8 yrs old of having anxiety and panic attacks ive NEVER felt so afraid and desperate... Ive tried so hard to fight it and stay strong but for the second time now its affected me physically to the point of major exhaustion... This in turn feeling ill makes me anxious as i constantly worry about my health and look for things ... Symptoms or anything else im on the internet frightening myself to death diagnosing myself with all sorts.

In the last week my legs and body got really weak and very tired i feel so ill but its not anxiety i feel so unwell i have feverish chills trembling.. Headaches. Blurred vision.. Confusion im scared its serotonin syndrome as it can cause death....

My doctor has done bloods to rule out anything major so im at a loss why do i feel like im dying?
I keep thinking im going to die in my sleep.... Coz im so ill... Oh well at least i'll get s rest eh? !!

[msduty2013]

You have to stop reading things! Its strange but I have actually manifested an illness by reading symptoms on the internet. The power of suggestion is that strong. I read somewhere once that anxiety can mimic the symptoms of some illnesses. /