MsMichie
03-07-2013, 12:16 AM
I don't know how to deal. I have a gazillion problems that I feel I need to fix but I can't. No one is there to help me work through these challenges - it's like any help costs a lot of money - I need direction- support so I know where I can use my interests in a real job. I need to figure out why I can never concentrate and instead procrastinate on schoolwork, thus always needing extensions but refusing to ask professors because I'm anxious to confront them
Ever. I need to know if its cause I have learning disabilities or if its just that I was lazy.
But assessments to help me find my way or help identifying learning challenges cost thousands of dollars, and though it would be nice to have I am way too nervous to spend that much money so frivolously (besides, what if the assessments don't actually help? They don't refund that)
My husband wants me to work, to apply to any job with decent pay, even if I don't care for it. He doesn't understand that I dread every day I go to my fathers accounting firm, I hate being there, it reminds me that I haven't accomplished anything in 5 years, that my life has stalled again and I'm stuck in a self loathing pit. , I don't feel like working for my dad now and i waste my time at the office online looking for jobs I wish I had instead, or on Facebook. I haven't worked on a file really in 3 weeks. And my husband thinks its a swell idea, good money too, if I were to go to school to be an accountant and work in my dads business, maybe take it over when he retires. He's suggested it twice this week. I can't stand it.
I am a front desk clerk twice a week at a recreation centre- I got the job last month. I don't want to be there at all. I feel stuck, going nowhere, I hate going to these jobs which remind me, when I'm at the job, how screwed up my life feels.
I want a job I can look forward to, that fulfills my desires and image of myself. I've applied to several and not one interview. I wonder why bother applying at all. Obviously if they don't like my resume now there's no use trying again in a month, it's the same resume (tweaked 3 times) and still I'm not good enough for the entry level job I want. And after all my prior years of volunteering for the community, and getting zilch on a stick at the place where i dedicated 4 years of my life (they never hire me to this day, and I see them an new application for each of their job openings that I'd qualify for)
I'm fed up. I don't want to go to a dead end work tomorrow while i stew over how the world turned my life upside down and left the mess for me to clean.
No one gets it. And all I got is one potential psychotherapy appt a week, starting next week, and I'm already not excited about it. $$$ down the drain like the last one I saw.
Ever. I need to know if its cause I have learning disabilities or if its just that I was lazy.
But assessments to help me find my way or help identifying learning challenges cost thousands of dollars, and though it would be nice to have I am way too nervous to spend that much money so frivolously (besides, what if the assessments don't actually help? They don't refund that)
My husband wants me to work, to apply to any job with decent pay, even if I don't care for it. He doesn't understand that I dread every day I go to my fathers accounting firm, I hate being there, it reminds me that I haven't accomplished anything in 5 years, that my life has stalled again and I'm stuck in a self loathing pit. , I don't feel like working for my dad now and i waste my time at the office online looking for jobs I wish I had instead, or on Facebook. I haven't worked on a file really in 3 weeks. And my husband thinks its a swell idea, good money too, if I were to go to school to be an accountant and work in my dads business, maybe take it over when he retires. He's suggested it twice this week. I can't stand it.
I am a front desk clerk twice a week at a recreation centre- I got the job last month. I don't want to be there at all. I feel stuck, going nowhere, I hate going to these jobs which remind me, when I'm at the job, how screwed up my life feels.
I want a job I can look forward to, that fulfills my desires and image of myself. I've applied to several and not one interview. I wonder why bother applying at all. Obviously if they don't like my resume now there's no use trying again in a month, it's the same resume (tweaked 3 times) and still I'm not good enough for the entry level job I want. And after all my prior years of volunteering for the community, and getting zilch on a stick at the place where i dedicated 4 years of my life (they never hire me to this day, and I see them an new application for each of their job openings that I'd qualify for)
I'm fed up. I don't want to go to a dead end work tomorrow while i stew over how the world turned my life upside down and left the mess for me to clean.
No one gets it. And all I got is one potential psychotherapy appt a week, starting next week, and I'm already not excited about it. $$$ down the drain like the last one I saw.