a38yearoldguy
06-28-2007, 11:37 PM
Hi all, I am going to try and make this not a life story, here goes with just the TV guide version
38 years old male, used to have have severe panic anxiety attacks at about 23, took xanax, they went away.
Always been moody, went thru my "the moon mocks my infested soul" stage and in hindsite, hey, we were all young.
Anyway, my problem is a few things, 1 being, when things WERE good, i was pretty good, and when things arent fine I am a wreck, so you know, when your dog dies and you are down, hell yeah you are, there is a cause and effect.
I think that has been my problem, I am known as a smartass doomed sort of cinical fatalist and, well, I have seen alot of bad things in my life that were very real and I feel and have felt that I am just reacting to them.
The deal is, I dont cry for no reason etc etc etc
Let me get to the point, I have OCDC and probably ADD and I also have NMI, thats No Medical Insurance.
I also have a serious back injury and have had 2 surgeries so I know how stress can totally result in real pain.
When I lived in a city that rained for 3 months, paid wayyy to much rent and was very down, well, my back was at a 8 out of 10 when it comes to pain.
I was an invalid, I moved away from that situation and it got better almost instantly.
Not "normal" but not killing me anymore.
SO
Here is my deal now.
I hate the city I live in, its just not my culture, I hate my apartment and guess what?, I work at home, so I am in a city i hate in an apartment I hate and being unhappy with all this, I dont have many friends because I am such a smug asshole sometimes because everyone seems to chlich'e and obvious and learning what I learned a decade ago.
anyway, sorry to ramble obviously I need to speak to a therapist
so here I am in a city I hate, in an apartment I loath, doing a job I am sick of, and I am dizzy and I have chronic muscle tension headaches
I was prescribed valium and also told I have sleep apnea, cant afford the sleep test and the valium helped the apnea
Here is my question i would love an opinion on.
As my situation started losing its charm I started getting horrible heachaches, went to dentist, I had to have 3 wisdom teeth removed
There was no improvement in headache, I then was told I needed a night gaurd because i grind my teeth, no improvement.
Went to neurologist, she said she was 99% sure it was muscular (I dont have the money for CT scans and yes, I know, I should FIND it, but at 99% I will wait)
she prescribed PT and nortryptalyne and flexaril.
no improvement but 2 advil every 4 hours does the trick for the headaches but not the dizziness.
got blood pressure checked, its perfect.
no other effects, just headaches and dizziness
here is the weirdest part, when I am laying down, no dizziness, when I am standing, ...pretty good, when i am sitting , VERY DIZZY
it started for about 2 weeks as a SLIP feeling, like falling in a chair cut for 1 second. and it would go on, ....normal normal normal SLIP, normal etc etc
Now its just a sort of wooziness
but really only when sitting
I am in this weird place, at about midnight at night, I feel pretty good, this feels like "my time", like your average person would get off work at 5:30, go home crazk a beer and that was "their time", mine is midnight, and I watch TV, putter around, write emails, do leisure stuff at home till about 4am, then I sleep till about noon
jeez, this is crazy, all i wanted to do was ask the dizzy question and look what I have done!
anyway, maybe I have TMJ, very well could, will look into that next
but the million dollar ? is, can depression and anxiety give you headaches and make you dizzy
and you would think if it was emotional...why sitting?
I JUST stopped the medication because my general doc said that those 2 are KNOWN for that side effect, and I mentioned valium earlier and maybe that was the time I was dizzy BEFORE
sorry for the scattered post..
well anyway, hello
whew
38 years old male, used to have have severe panic anxiety attacks at about 23, took xanax, they went away.
Always been moody, went thru my "the moon mocks my infested soul" stage and in hindsite, hey, we were all young.
Anyway, my problem is a few things, 1 being, when things WERE good, i was pretty good, and when things arent fine I am a wreck, so you know, when your dog dies and you are down, hell yeah you are, there is a cause and effect.
I think that has been my problem, I am known as a smartass doomed sort of cinical fatalist and, well, I have seen alot of bad things in my life that were very real and I feel and have felt that I am just reacting to them.
The deal is, I dont cry for no reason etc etc etc
Let me get to the point, I have OCDC and probably ADD and I also have NMI, thats No Medical Insurance.
I also have a serious back injury and have had 2 surgeries so I know how stress can totally result in real pain.
When I lived in a city that rained for 3 months, paid wayyy to much rent and was very down, well, my back was at a 8 out of 10 when it comes to pain.
I was an invalid, I moved away from that situation and it got better almost instantly.
Not "normal" but not killing me anymore.
SO
Here is my deal now.
I hate the city I live in, its just not my culture, I hate my apartment and guess what?, I work at home, so I am in a city i hate in an apartment I hate and being unhappy with all this, I dont have many friends because I am such a smug asshole sometimes because everyone seems to chlich'e and obvious and learning what I learned a decade ago.
anyway, sorry to ramble obviously I need to speak to a therapist
so here I am in a city I hate, in an apartment I loath, doing a job I am sick of, and I am dizzy and I have chronic muscle tension headaches
I was prescribed valium and also told I have sleep apnea, cant afford the sleep test and the valium helped the apnea
Here is my question i would love an opinion on.
As my situation started losing its charm I started getting horrible heachaches, went to dentist, I had to have 3 wisdom teeth removed
There was no improvement in headache, I then was told I needed a night gaurd because i grind my teeth, no improvement.
Went to neurologist, she said she was 99% sure it was muscular (I dont have the money for CT scans and yes, I know, I should FIND it, but at 99% I will wait)
she prescribed PT and nortryptalyne and flexaril.
no improvement but 2 advil every 4 hours does the trick for the headaches but not the dizziness.
got blood pressure checked, its perfect.
no other effects, just headaches and dizziness
here is the weirdest part, when I am laying down, no dizziness, when I am standing, ...pretty good, when i am sitting , VERY DIZZY
it started for about 2 weeks as a SLIP feeling, like falling in a chair cut for 1 second. and it would go on, ....normal normal normal SLIP, normal etc etc
Now its just a sort of wooziness
but really only when sitting
I am in this weird place, at about midnight at night, I feel pretty good, this feels like "my time", like your average person would get off work at 5:30, go home crazk a beer and that was "their time", mine is midnight, and I watch TV, putter around, write emails, do leisure stuff at home till about 4am, then I sleep till about noon
jeez, this is crazy, all i wanted to do was ask the dizzy question and look what I have done!
anyway, maybe I have TMJ, very well could, will look into that next
but the million dollar ? is, can depression and anxiety give you headaches and make you dizzy
and you would think if it was emotional...why sitting?
I JUST stopped the medication because my general doc said that those 2 are KNOWN for that side effect, and I mentioned valium earlier and maybe that was the time I was dizzy BEFORE
sorry for the scattered post..
well anyway, hello
whew