I wish I was who I was before this happen...

[BrokenHalo7]

I'm so sick of worrying about not being normal, or just simple things like the future scare the hell out of me. I swear I was so normal before this happen. Just 60 days ago. I was normal. I never even knew what depression looked like. I pray to god everyday to just cure me. This is getting so old. Some nights I can sleep and some nights I cant. I'm sick of being afraid and not wanting to do anything. I WANT ME BACK!!!! HOW LONG WILL THIS LAST!!! I so need to go to the docs. but im so far away from home and I have to wait until late next week sometime to take some tests. Vitamin D Tests and Vitamin B12 test... I need a cure!!! I really want my freaking life back...

[abbyholmess]

I forget how I was before my panic disorder developed. It's been 4 years, almost 5 years for me since I've been calm. But I look on the bright side and think 'Maybe I'll get to the point someday when I won't remember how it feels to be anxious all the time!'