storm99
03-04-2013, 10:15 AM
I have posted before here is a recap
Hi All
Last October i went for an eye test, long story short they put the wrong lenses in and i was getting symptoms like real bad heads, blurred vision and dizzy spells. After 8 weeks of going back to spec savers complaining and going to doctors to see what was wrong, when told everything was fine i started looking and loads of stupid things on the net. I then began gettinng symptoms like pins and needles all over, tension headaches and racing thoughts. i was having kill/hurt thoughts now these have stopped im left with the below
After the mistake was spotted and sorted it should of really ended there, but i have just made things much worse. I began to have sleep issues sleeping only 2-3 hours a night and crying for no reason, felt as though i was in a dream and going crazy. i went to the gp and he gave me trazdone, it worked like a treat for 3 weeks and seemed to clear my head abit i was on 100mg a night
Then the sleeping problems began again and i started feeling alittle down. I started looking at stupid things on the net after my mum said i hope you aint got skizophrinia or somthing not the best thing to say. However damage was done i went online looking at the symptoms and now i can't get them out my head, there just spinning around trying to fit themselevs into my life.
I read they thing places are bugged, filling are tracking devices and vans are FBI people are watching them, or talking about them. Its like my mind can think oh are they talking about me, but at the same time im thinking dont be so silly. now im thinking what if things are bugged, what if my phone bugged, what if someones watching and i jut feel like im going completly crazy. i am sick of constantly saying when i hear something did you hear that to my family. Ive never heard anything. i even get panicy when them floaters go past your eyes. I read they believe aliens are after them, or they think they are the king or queen. I was reading the paper the other day and there was a story about the queen or pope and instantly in my head are they talking about me, if i lose something i think have aliens took it. I went to the gp right away and he said its just bad aniexty, but im getting scared im sick of having to tell my family every little thought that goes through my head, its like me eyes, ears and mind are on alert 24 7 incase i hear something. However the strange thing is i proberly would have not known any of this if i never googled, then im scared what happens if i did
I then stopped taking the trazodone as it never seemed to be helping i cut it down from 100mg to 0, bad idea i know. Im just really scared i have this illness and its driving me crazy, i mean the other day i drew a smiley face and my mind instantly thought what if it can see me, i know this is complety stupid though lol. I can lie in bed and my mind makes little stories the other night it was work realted it was like my mind was trying to act out the voices (like mind chatter). But it feels like im awake. Then in a couple of seconds i can forget them.
Where am i know still no better :( but im trying my best not to let it get me down. Why do we google. Ive been to the gp and he still insists its anxiety, and he would be looking for alot more if i had something else wrong but would not tell me what. and keeps telling me to take the trazdone. However its still not helping me with sleep or calming me down. its like a constant fight its like my mind wants to believe all this is true and its getting hard to keep on fighting it.
Hi All
Last October i went for an eye test, long story short they put the wrong lenses in and i was getting symptoms like real bad heads, blurred vision and dizzy spells. After 8 weeks of going back to spec savers complaining and going to doctors to see what was wrong, when told everything was fine i started looking and loads of stupid things on the net. I then began gettinng symptoms like pins and needles all over, tension headaches and racing thoughts. i was having kill/hurt thoughts now these have stopped im left with the below
After the mistake was spotted and sorted it should of really ended there, but i have just made things much worse. I began to have sleep issues sleeping only 2-3 hours a night and crying for no reason, felt as though i was in a dream and going crazy. i went to the gp and he gave me trazdone, it worked like a treat for 3 weeks and seemed to clear my head abit i was on 100mg a night
Then the sleeping problems began again and i started feeling alittle down. I started looking at stupid things on the net after my mum said i hope you aint got skizophrinia or somthing not the best thing to say. However damage was done i went online looking at the symptoms and now i can't get them out my head, there just spinning around trying to fit themselevs into my life.
I read they thing places are bugged, filling are tracking devices and vans are FBI people are watching them, or talking about them. Its like my mind can think oh are they talking about me, but at the same time im thinking dont be so silly. now im thinking what if things are bugged, what if my phone bugged, what if someones watching and i jut feel like im going completly crazy. i am sick of constantly saying when i hear something did you hear that to my family. Ive never heard anything. i even get panicy when them floaters go past your eyes. I read they believe aliens are after them, or they think they are the king or queen. I was reading the paper the other day and there was a story about the queen or pope and instantly in my head are they talking about me, if i lose something i think have aliens took it. I went to the gp right away and he said its just bad aniexty, but im getting scared im sick of having to tell my family every little thought that goes through my head, its like me eyes, ears and mind are on alert 24 7 incase i hear something. However the strange thing is i proberly would have not known any of this if i never googled, then im scared what happens if i did
I then stopped taking the trazodone as it never seemed to be helping i cut it down from 100mg to 0, bad idea i know. Im just really scared i have this illness and its driving me crazy, i mean the other day i drew a smiley face and my mind instantly thought what if it can see me, i know this is complety stupid though lol. I can lie in bed and my mind makes little stories the other night it was work realted it was like my mind was trying to act out the voices (like mind chatter). But it feels like im awake. Then in a couple of seconds i can forget them.
Where am i know still no better :( but im trying my best not to let it get me down. Why do we google. Ive been to the gp and he still insists its anxiety, and he would be looking for alot more if i had something else wrong but would not tell me what. and keeps telling me to take the trazdone. However its still not helping me with sleep or calming me down. its like a constant fight its like my mind wants to believe all this is true and its getting hard to keep on fighting it.