kelsta
03-03-2013, 08:47 PM
Hi all, I have suffered this most of my life. Had my first panic attack at 15 but got over it, then had a few here & there but it became a nightmare when I was 20.. I was a mum of 2 great kids aged 2 & 6 months & my father took his own life. My world spiralled out of control. Panic & anxiety had hit me hard. I was put onto Zoloft which in time helped me.. I was able to manage it & was feeling ok. This was in 1998.... Since then during times of extreme stress or forgetting to take 1 pill I go through the horrible panic again till I double the dose it kicks in & I feel able to taper it back down. The highest I have taken is 200mg. Just recently, like 4 months ago I had my fourth baby after a 13 year age gap between nub & my youngest son. Everything was great, I got through my whole pregnancy & birth without a single panic attack. I remained on 10omg of Zoloft throughout my pregnancy but the last couple of weeks I have hit rock bottom again. I'm 35 now & almost a pro at dealing with this demon but I forget to take 1 pill again & to add to my stress my 17 yr old daughter took an overdose on antidepressants due to bullying ( she is ok now & getting help ) & my youngest son who is 13 is facing his own anxiety issues so its been a stressful time. My baby girl is 4 months old & a brilliant happy baby.. But my panic & anxiety have come back bad. The doctors have upped my dose to 150mg of Zoloft so I'm hoping that kicks in soon because I can't handle feeling constantly anxious.... My fear itself is the fear of a panic attack... I'm so on edge. Any advice would be great, thanks kel