scottishbabe_fe
02-27-2013, 02:47 PM
hi there
just wanted to introduce myself and talk about how SA plays a part in my life. It is such a relief to know I'm not alone in all this, felt like such a weirdo for so long and now i realise that so many others suffer from this. My SA has been with me, if i was to hazard a guess, prob from high school - I went to an all girls school and it was constant 'who was the best' / the top girls etc - i remember being terrified of doing presentations ( still am) and asked to only do it in front of the teacher etc. also when i had swimming class i wore my tshirt over my suit because i was so shy in front of the others, this used to get a lot of laughs from others and mocking. I gave up a whole years worth of work in gym because i didnt want to do it anymore...
i'm now 28, and i would say its got worse as i have got older. I was in an abusive relationship for 4 years so i think this contributed to it. These days, getting on a bus / going for dinner / shopping on my own in the supermarket / standing in line for a film all triggers my anxiety. I work in an office and sometimes need to speak in front of people - this terrifies me and i try to avoid this at all costs. presentations are out of the question. I want to try and get better because i absolutely hate having this, its controlling my life and i feel i cant live properly. I recently got engaged and the thought of standing center of attention in front of people makes me feel physically sick and i've now resided that unless i get drunk on the day, i wont be able to physically do it.
I recently got put on CBT by the dr after i finally gave in and told someone how bad it was...i have been on this for 4 months and tomorrow is my last session. i feel i have got nothing from it, nothing has improved at all. I am currently on proponolol (betablokers) but on a very low dose, again i dont feel these work. dont really know how else to deal with things. Things like getting a haircut / my nails done are things i would love to do but cant because it makes me feel so anxious and know i would shake/body shake/have palpitations - all the usual symptoms i get when suffering from SA.
not sure what else to do! but this forum helps alot.
thanks for reading
Fi
just wanted to introduce myself and talk about how SA plays a part in my life. It is such a relief to know I'm not alone in all this, felt like such a weirdo for so long and now i realise that so many others suffer from this. My SA has been with me, if i was to hazard a guess, prob from high school - I went to an all girls school and it was constant 'who was the best' / the top girls etc - i remember being terrified of doing presentations ( still am) and asked to only do it in front of the teacher etc. also when i had swimming class i wore my tshirt over my suit because i was so shy in front of the others, this used to get a lot of laughs from others and mocking. I gave up a whole years worth of work in gym because i didnt want to do it anymore...
i'm now 28, and i would say its got worse as i have got older. I was in an abusive relationship for 4 years so i think this contributed to it. These days, getting on a bus / going for dinner / shopping on my own in the supermarket / standing in line for a film all triggers my anxiety. I work in an office and sometimes need to speak in front of people - this terrifies me and i try to avoid this at all costs. presentations are out of the question. I want to try and get better because i absolutely hate having this, its controlling my life and i feel i cant live properly. I recently got engaged and the thought of standing center of attention in front of people makes me feel physically sick and i've now resided that unless i get drunk on the day, i wont be able to physically do it.
I recently got put on CBT by the dr after i finally gave in and told someone how bad it was...i have been on this for 4 months and tomorrow is my last session. i feel i have got nothing from it, nothing has improved at all. I am currently on proponolol (betablokers) but on a very low dose, again i dont feel these work. dont really know how else to deal with things. Things like getting a haircut / my nails done are things i would love to do but cant because it makes me feel so anxious and know i would shake/body shake/have palpitations - all the usual symptoms i get when suffering from SA.
not sure what else to do! but this forum helps alot.
thanks for reading
Fi