cyncyn
02-24-2013, 06:39 PM
Hi, I haven't been here in awhile, I was doing well for quite some time. I have a fear of staying home alone and have made some success over the last couple of months. Well, tonight I just feel horrible at the thought of being alone tomorrow when my hubby goes to work. My other main support person ( my mom) is out of town and this had thrown me in a tailspin. I don't understand though because she was gone for 10 days last December and I did fine, no panic attacks! Now I feel so abandoned, like something awful will happen tomorrow and my hubby will be at work and ill have no one to call or come if I need them. I've never had to have her come over just knowing she was around was enough. Or if I was especially stressed my husband would drop me off at her house on way to work. Again, though that hasn't happened for months!
I know I'm stressed out over looking for a job, I've been out of work for 4 1/2 months. I keep going on interviews and nothing. We're beyond strapped and had to take money from my mom for groceries. I know this added stress is why I'm freaking out now and my husband is tiring of me crying all the time. On top of all this I haven't seen my psychiatrist since November because my husband's employer changed our insurance and had to switch docs, finally will get to see one march 1st. When I was like this before all nervous I would say I could go to the emergency room or god forbid call an ambulance but now we can't afford the medical bills. I've read a lot of posts here and panic cured had the right idea but don't know how or too depressed to implement them. I know panic attacks don't cause you to go crazy but they sure make your life a living hell!
I know I'm stressed out over looking for a job, I've been out of work for 4 1/2 months. I keep going on interviews and nothing. We're beyond strapped and had to take money from my mom for groceries. I know this added stress is why I'm freaking out now and my husband is tiring of me crying all the time. On top of all this I haven't seen my psychiatrist since November because my husband's employer changed our insurance and had to switch docs, finally will get to see one march 1st. When I was like this before all nervous I would say I could go to the emergency room or god forbid call an ambulance but now we can't afford the medical bills. I've read a lot of posts here and panic cured had the right idea but don't know how or too depressed to implement them. I know panic attacks don't cause you to go crazy but they sure make your life a living hell!