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paul_aus
02-22-2013, 05:41 AM
I never suffered from Agoraphobia until i became older.

I find compare to when i was young and in my early 20s, i had allot of friends but now in my 30s, it's very hard to catch up with friends all the time cause everyone is busy. I have friends but I wish to have close friendships where when my friends don't catch up and reject me, i suffer from Agoraphobia and i can't leave the house except at nights.

Today during the daytime, i went over the road to shop and had to rush back home cause it hurts 2 much. if i feel like somoene is rejecting me and doesn't like me it sets me off! I'm at the point where i've had enough.... I make new friends and than they stop contacting me cause they get into a relationship/busy with life, etc.... i find the older i get the more lonely i get!

I just don't know what to do, i've been getting help but i find it's just loneliness and rejection problems. Around Xmas last year when all my friends had time off and we were catching up, I was happy but now i'm so depressed cause everyone is busy again. I find it hard to make new friends cause it takes time to build trust and become close to someone which is what i desire so bad.

I can't function, i don't like to go to class or work cause i'm scared to get close to people cause everyone i get close to rejects me and it really hurts 2 much where i can't function and I freeze up at the moment!

I just need to feel safe where i don't have any good friends to really talk to about this! What's the point, when i put myself out int he world to make new friends i get hurt, which has happen to me in my relationship. I was with someone that hurt me so bad 2 years ago and have suffered from panic attacks for the first time in my life. I can't get close to a women anymore. It puts me into a panic when i do... i was a very social person before this but it's so hard.... I even took the year off last year and stayed home, i just had to get away from everyone but it just made my Agoraphobia worst but at the same time i felt safe and began to heal in a way from my relationship. i was getting help at the same time 2. The year before this, my body shut down on me. I couldn't eat, i couldn't move, was in pain all the time hence why i took last year off but this year i want to get back out there but it's SO HARD. I want to do something with my life cause being at home all the time doesn't make me happy!

what to do with my life, i don't have any desire to do anything anymore at present, just so depressed and in a dark place right now.... :(