defmunel
02-18-2013, 09:54 AM
Hey guys, it's been quite a while since I've been on. I've been doing very well with my anxiety. I've been seeing a therapist 2x a month, and it's helped a lot.
Right now I'm so fearful that I have skin cancer. 3 days ago, I noticed a new spot on my temple. Next to one that has been there for a long time. It's a scarring like spot. And it's growing. Even these last 3 days. I have an appt tomorrow to see the dr to have it checked.
I guess im not so fearful that it can't be removed, but more fearful that it will be a lifelong battle with new ones forming, or old ones returning. Or that the ones i have are embedded deep and have spread. That scares me.
I had to take a Xanax last night to calm me down. It's been a long time since I've had to do that.
This kind of anxiety prevents me from living in the present moment. I hate it. I cry, fear the worst...I feel like I live minute by minute. My days seem endless. The what ifs really get to me.
If anyone can offer encouragement, or support I thank you. I hate feeling this way, especially when I've been doing so well.
Def
Right now I'm so fearful that I have skin cancer. 3 days ago, I noticed a new spot on my temple. Next to one that has been there for a long time. It's a scarring like spot. And it's growing. Even these last 3 days. I have an appt tomorrow to see the dr to have it checked.
I guess im not so fearful that it can't be removed, but more fearful that it will be a lifelong battle with new ones forming, or old ones returning. Or that the ones i have are embedded deep and have spread. That scares me.
I had to take a Xanax last night to calm me down. It's been a long time since I've had to do that.
This kind of anxiety prevents me from living in the present moment. I hate it. I cry, fear the worst...I feel like I live minute by minute. My days seem endless. The what ifs really get to me.
If anyone can offer encouragement, or support I thank you. I hate feeling this way, especially when I've been doing so well.
Def