Traumatic childhood led to my disorders?

[thatyuckyfeeling]

I was wondering if others have had crappy childhoods and blame this for this awful disease. My dad was a violent alcoholic. H never laid a finger on me, but raged on a weekly basis, kicking in doors to my mothers room, punching walls, belittling my mom. This all happened in front of me and scared the living crap out of me on a weekly basis for over a decade. Does anyone else have similar childhood issues that you think contribute to your disease?

[moonchild1986]

Yes. I had a horrid child hood

[thatyuckyfeeling]

Thanks for sharing. The weird thing for me was that until I started therapy I basically repressed my childhood and believed that it was normal. Now I am starting to remember events that scare the hell out of me. But at least now I can understand where my OCD and anxiety arose from. Thanks for sharing!

[moonchild1986]

I'm exactly the same. It wasn't until I became a mum myself that I realises oh my child hood was horrific.

[thatyuckyfeeling]

It's awful. Congrats on being a mom. I really want kids and so does my wife, but I'm so afraid that my child would inherit all my psych disorders. Maybe down the road when I get better, but for now taking care of myself is my top priority. Thanks for the reply!

[scow]

Childhood - severely impacted me - that's what can happen.

[sazco]

Thats how my step-dad was so i believe this is why i am the way i am today.

[akredlin]

After years of therapy they figured out that's what triggered mine as well- my father was an alcoholic but what I saw that triggered it was him vomiting uncontrollably. So now I'm a huge emerophic (I fear vomiting and stomach viruses) which makes my life a living hell. And just like you, I fear having kids as well because I hate the thought of me passing it onto them. I've said things like "I'm so miserable I wouldn't wish this upon anyone- not even my worst enemy" let alone my kids. I can't imagine my babies going through this. So I know where you're coming from.