taco_burglar
02-15-2013, 05:39 AM
SO I don't know what the forum etiquette is around here but I feel like I need some one to talk to so this is my first post and my first thread.
Right now, I am sitting at my computer procrastinating about reading an email from one of my professors. I sent her an email explaining some absences and late assignments. Part of the letter was embarrassing because I admitted I was hospitalized for alcohol withdrawals ( I use alcohol to deal with my anxiety. I don't drink everyday but sometimes I go on days long binges and this last one was particularly bad) and that's why I missed class and an assigned due date. Ugghhh.... I just feel like a fucking bum.
I do the same thing with student loan debt collectors. I let the unopened letters pile up and accrue even more interest because I have extreme anxiety about dealing with these people. This avoidance leads to more shitty feelings and anxiety.
Today I made a decision to finally open the letters and call the collectors. It went better than I expected and relieved some of my anxiety.
The fear of reading the email from my teacher is even more severe though because it's a really embarrassing situation and I am basically admitting to her that I am an alcoholic. uggghhh. The only thing worse than a response from her would be no response at all because then I would have to visit her office about it.
Can anyone giving me some encouragement to get this done?
TL;DR I'm avoiding reading a potentially negative email from my professor. Do other people have this problem with avoiding important letters or emails that but could be negative?
Thank you very much for any advice. :)
Right now, I am sitting at my computer procrastinating about reading an email from one of my professors. I sent her an email explaining some absences and late assignments. Part of the letter was embarrassing because I admitted I was hospitalized for alcohol withdrawals ( I use alcohol to deal with my anxiety. I don't drink everyday but sometimes I go on days long binges and this last one was particularly bad) and that's why I missed class and an assigned due date. Ugghhh.... I just feel like a fucking bum.
I do the same thing with student loan debt collectors. I let the unopened letters pile up and accrue even more interest because I have extreme anxiety about dealing with these people. This avoidance leads to more shitty feelings and anxiety.
Today I made a decision to finally open the letters and call the collectors. It went better than I expected and relieved some of my anxiety.
The fear of reading the email from my teacher is even more severe though because it's a really embarrassing situation and I am basically admitting to her that I am an alcoholic. uggghhh. The only thing worse than a response from her would be no response at all because then I would have to visit her office about it.
Can anyone giving me some encouragement to get this done?
TL;DR I'm avoiding reading a potentially negative email from my professor. Do other people have this problem with avoiding important letters or emails that but could be negative?
Thank you very much for any advice. :)