Halfmiler
02-14-2013, 08:52 PM
Hey everyone, sorry if it's long...
I first began posting in the general anxiety forum because that's what seemed wrong with me at the time. Now I am pretty much cured with the anxiety thanks to a lot of journaling, running, and keeping myself busy. However, I've noticed the past month I go through weeklong spells of feeling very depressed. This week I had a lot of exams and there were a few I didn't do as well as I wanted to. This led to really awful negative thoughts that pretty much led to me breaking down over the phone with my parents begging to come home this weekend. That was Tuesday, I got my test score back, and it was a 98, so pretty good right? Wrong. I thought I'd be happy about it but I still feel miserable and worthless. Today I pretty much avoided everyone and nearly broke down in chemistry when my professor make a joking remark to me. I contemplated not even seeing my boyfriend for a Valentine's Day dinner....I just felt so apathetic about everything and everyone it makes me feel so guilty. Like, what is so wrong with my life (which isn't bad at all!) that I can't be happy like everyone else? Ever since I had my panic and anxiety in December-January I've had really off and on days with these depressed moods. I don't want it to develop into something serious....does it sound like I'm a case of depression?
I first began posting in the general anxiety forum because that's what seemed wrong with me at the time. Now I am pretty much cured with the anxiety thanks to a lot of journaling, running, and keeping myself busy. However, I've noticed the past month I go through weeklong spells of feeling very depressed. This week I had a lot of exams and there were a few I didn't do as well as I wanted to. This led to really awful negative thoughts that pretty much led to me breaking down over the phone with my parents begging to come home this weekend. That was Tuesday, I got my test score back, and it was a 98, so pretty good right? Wrong. I thought I'd be happy about it but I still feel miserable and worthless. Today I pretty much avoided everyone and nearly broke down in chemistry when my professor make a joking remark to me. I contemplated not even seeing my boyfriend for a Valentine's Day dinner....I just felt so apathetic about everything and everyone it makes me feel so guilty. Like, what is so wrong with my life (which isn't bad at all!) that I can't be happy like everyone else? Ever since I had my panic and anxiety in December-January I've had really off and on days with these depressed moods. I don't want it to develop into something serious....does it sound like I'm a case of depression?