draygonfly
06-04-2007, 11:49 AM
Hi, My name is Amy. I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder and Mild Agoraphobia. I refuse to take medication not only because I have a fear of swallowing pills, but because I've been self teaching myself for the past 5 years to attempt to get through my anxiety. I live with my boyfriend James who I've been dating for almost 9 months and have known him for 11 years. He's been helping me get through some of my attacks, although limited because he has no idea what I go through, it helps bunches. I figured I would try out an anxiety forum to see if I could relate to peoples problems or anyone could relate to mine whichever.
I'm generally a nice person to get to know unless you catch me on one of my bad days. I can be very blunt, which in turn can hurt people and I don't mean to do that, I just speak my mind without thinking sometimes. It's led my boyfriends mom into thinking I hate her, which I don't. She's just annoying sometimes :tongue:
I come from a divorced family, my mom left my dad and I have pretty much lived with my dad my whole life. My mom is a great woman and I love her, but sometimes she leads me into thinking something is seriously wrong with me, and I caused it somehow, even though she's never EVER said something like that.. I guess it's just the way she talks about it to me, that it makes me feel guilty for having my problems even though she doesn't mean it like that. She's just not good at handling things like this.
My dad on the other hand is a little guilt-trippish. He tries to make me feel bad, so he can feel good and I don't think he means to do this, but it has caused me a lot of grief the past couple of years. I've brought it to his attention a couple of times and he does apologize for it. I think from being from a big family and being the youngest, he had to find his way to fit in and that was what worked.
I'm rambling though, I do that when I'm nervous. I feel like I have to justify every single thing I say or do. I apologize. Anyways There is my background and what I was diagnosed with.
I'm generally a nice person to get to know unless you catch me on one of my bad days. I can be very blunt, which in turn can hurt people and I don't mean to do that, I just speak my mind without thinking sometimes. It's led my boyfriends mom into thinking I hate her, which I don't. She's just annoying sometimes :tongue:
I come from a divorced family, my mom left my dad and I have pretty much lived with my dad my whole life. My mom is a great woman and I love her, but sometimes she leads me into thinking something is seriously wrong with me, and I caused it somehow, even though she's never EVER said something like that.. I guess it's just the way she talks about it to me, that it makes me feel guilty for having my problems even though she doesn't mean it like that. She's just not good at handling things like this.
My dad on the other hand is a little guilt-trippish. He tries to make me feel bad, so he can feel good and I don't think he means to do this, but it has caused me a lot of grief the past couple of years. I've brought it to his attention a couple of times and he does apologize for it. I think from being from a big family and being the youngest, he had to find his way to fit in and that was what worked.
I'm rambling though, I do that when I'm nervous. I feel like I have to justify every single thing I say or do. I apologize. Anyways There is my background and what I was diagnosed with.