jac355
01-29-2013, 02:55 PM
I truly have no clue where to begin . A little about myself, I suppose. I am male, 57, originally from Southern California and now live in Oregon. I have been dealing with [what I presume to be] anxiety since I was around 12 or 13. From that time until now has been an endless nightmare in the most real way for me. I have kept it hidden as deep as I can hide it since my late teens. Back in the day, I became very tired of people treating me like I was crazy and/or stupid. Most especially my family. Those who are supposed to care the most. In theory, of course. I have tried, at various times over the years to discuss it with 4 different doctors, but by the time we get a short way into it, they have always veered off in other directions, sending me to get blood tests, x-rays, MRI's, and any manner of other pointless test they have at hand. The most recent round, I endured a nuclear stress test and echocardiogram. I long ago reached the point of accepting this as a life long situation, and since that time I have focused my thoughts on simply dragging myself through each successive day as best I can. I am not a techie by any means, but wandering across cyberspace I found this forum and thought I would jump in and see where this might lead. I will stop in (almost) daily and see what I can discover here. I am hopeful of finding even the smallest shred of rhyme or reason for what I have lived with these many years. Thanks for reading this and greetings to all who live this life we share.