ryanlol
01-22-2013, 11:29 PM
I'm a twenty year old gentleman who has a tough problem with anxiety.
As i'm posting this, i've recently moved in with my wife (one year was dec.30, and yes i know i'm young) into a new apartment. We have a comfortable lifestyle, and we both don't really have to stress out about money too bad.
I graduated high school early, and around my senior year is when anxiety began to get ahold of me. A month or so before my graduation, i would always have panic attacks and i knew it was anxiety because my mother is diagnosed and she often helped me get through it. (sometimes even giving me some of her medication to calm my intense panic attacks.) I went and saw my doctor after graduating, who gave me a prescription to Klonopin to take as needed. I've been on this since.
Upon graduating high school at the fresh age of 17, i immediately went into college and i maintained two jobs. Last Jan, i got a full time job and made deans list for my college. However, i still fight and am hindered by my anxiety. I don't know where why or where it has come from, but it drives me insane. Recently, i even got an award at work for being one of the few employees who had the highest sales for the quarter of the year.
So, i'm fairly successful for my age, and i have a lot going for me. however...
I've noticed i can't enjoy the simple things in life that i want to enjoy. It's difficult for me to have a drink with some buddies, or enjoy any type of recreational hobby. Even if i get really good at something, my anxiety self-talk eliminates my ability to further push and succeed in what i want to. I constantly have fears of losing my job, losing my lifestyle, and losing everything that i've built in my life. I strive for acceptance; if i'm at work and my boss or anyone above me for that matter isn't highly impressed with my work, i panic and feel like i've ruined my entire life. I can't do anything wrong; if it's not perfect, i feel like i'll be fired. When it comes to my personal life; if i don't do everything correct, i feel like all my friends will leave me (even though in reality, they never would.) It's overwhelming, and after years of dealing with this and having a panic attack that i'm going to lose my life, i strived to communicate with people in this forum who possibly can help me progress.
Most of all... I'm tired of facing every situation in my life like a dog with his tail between his legs. It's killing me.
Btw, My name is Ryan. Nice to meet you, and thank you to whomever read my introduction.
As i'm posting this, i've recently moved in with my wife (one year was dec.30, and yes i know i'm young) into a new apartment. We have a comfortable lifestyle, and we both don't really have to stress out about money too bad.
I graduated high school early, and around my senior year is when anxiety began to get ahold of me. A month or so before my graduation, i would always have panic attacks and i knew it was anxiety because my mother is diagnosed and she often helped me get through it. (sometimes even giving me some of her medication to calm my intense panic attacks.) I went and saw my doctor after graduating, who gave me a prescription to Klonopin to take as needed. I've been on this since.
Upon graduating high school at the fresh age of 17, i immediately went into college and i maintained two jobs. Last Jan, i got a full time job and made deans list for my college. However, i still fight and am hindered by my anxiety. I don't know where why or where it has come from, but it drives me insane. Recently, i even got an award at work for being one of the few employees who had the highest sales for the quarter of the year.
So, i'm fairly successful for my age, and i have a lot going for me. however...
I've noticed i can't enjoy the simple things in life that i want to enjoy. It's difficult for me to have a drink with some buddies, or enjoy any type of recreational hobby. Even if i get really good at something, my anxiety self-talk eliminates my ability to further push and succeed in what i want to. I constantly have fears of losing my job, losing my lifestyle, and losing everything that i've built in my life. I strive for acceptance; if i'm at work and my boss or anyone above me for that matter isn't highly impressed with my work, i panic and feel like i've ruined my entire life. I can't do anything wrong; if it's not perfect, i feel like i'll be fired. When it comes to my personal life; if i don't do everything correct, i feel like all my friends will leave me (even though in reality, they never would.) It's overwhelming, and after years of dealing with this and having a panic attack that i'm going to lose my life, i strived to communicate with people in this forum who possibly can help me progress.
Most of all... I'm tired of facing every situation in my life like a dog with his tail between his legs. It's killing me.
Btw, My name is Ryan. Nice to meet you, and thank you to whomever read my introduction.